Squee!

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I was musing with Kaze about my inability to go anywhere with the follow-up to Shine last night, and I determined maybe the opening was just wrong. So I rewrote it, and then the rest of the chapter just flowed. X3 It's up, and I've started chapter two.

The theme for the fic is stars, so I'm looking for all the song titles/lyrics relating to stars I can find, as possible chapter titles. And duh, I rediscovered Evanescence's Your Star! It really sounds like the image song for this fic.


I can't see your star
I can't see your star
though I patiently waited, bedside, for the death of today
I can't see your star
the mechanical lights of Lisbon frightened it away

and I'm alone now
me and all I stood for
we're wandering now
all in parts in pieces, swim lonely
find your own way out

I can't see your star
I can't see your star
how can the darkness feel so wrong?

and I'm alone now
me and all I stood for
we're wandering now
all in parts in pieces, swim lonely
find your own way out

So far away
its growing colder without your love
why can't you feel me calling your name?
can't break the silence
its breaking me

all my fears turn to rage

and I'm alone now me
and all I stood for
we're wandering now
all in parts and pieces, swim lonely
find your own way out


While rediscovering that, I happened to look at the lyrics for The Only One on the previous page in the lyrics booklet. Genesis song. X3 Yes. **never had a clear image before of what the song reminded her of.**


When they all come crashing down- midflight
you know you're not the only one
when they're so alone they find a back door out of life
you know you're not the only one

We're all grieving
lost and bleeding

All our lives
we've been waiting
for someone to call our leader
all your lies
I'm not believing
heaven shine a light down on me

So afraid to open your eyes- hypnotized
you know you're not the only one
never understood this life
and you're right I don't deserve but you know I'm not the only one

We're all grieving
lost and bleeding

All our lives
we've been waiting
for someone to call our leader
all your lies
I'm not believing
heaven shine a light down on me

Don't look down
don't look into the eyes of the world beneath you
don't look down, you'll fall down,
you'll become their sacrifice
right or wrong
can't hold onto the fear that I'm lost without you
if I can't feel, I'm not mine,
I'm not real

All our lives
we've been waiting
for someone to call our leader
all your lies
I'm not believing
heaven shine a light down on me


While I'm thinking of it, have I mentioned that Hand of Sorrow now totally makes me think of Genesis, Seph, and maybe Angeal? All the SOLDIERs who wanted to get out/did get out, and the sorrows and tragedies that resulted.


The child without a name grew up to be the hand
To watch you, to shield you, or kill on demand
The choice he'd made he could not comprehend
His blood a grim secret they had to command

He's torn between his honor and the true love of his life
He prayed for both but was denied

So many dreams were broken and so much was sacrificed
Was it worth the ones we loved and had to leave behind
So many years have past, who are the noble and the wise?
Will all our sins be justified?

The curse of his powers tormented his life
Obeying the crown was a sinister price
His soul was tortured by love and by pain
He surely would flee, but the oath made him stay

He's torn between his honor and the true love of his life
He prayed for both but was denied

So many dreams were broken and so much was sacrificed
Was it worth the ones we loved and had to leave behind
So many years have past, who are the noble and the wise?
Will all our sins be justified?

Please forgive me for the sorrow
For leaving you in fear
For the dreams we had to silence
That's all there'll ever be
Still I'll be the hand that serves you
Though you'll not see that it is me

So many dreams were broken and so much was sacrificed
Was it worth the ones we loved and had to leave behind
So many years have past, who are the noble and the wise?
Will all our sins be justified?


I've found a bunch of cute pics on DeviantArt the last couple of days, and then Kaze has sent others. X3 So I'm on a squee high tonight. Only problem there is, I can't decide whether to keep writing the current angst, start a blurb of other angst, or do some flat-out fluff.

And after the awesome RP Lisa and I did, I have decided the mind-control thing must be a fic. And the events of the previous entry's blurb must be done like they were in the RP, with Angeal being the one to find Genesis. ;__;

And while I actually REMEMBER, for Pete's sake, here! X3 http://community.livejournal.com/_crisiscore_/102577.html Have a Kenichi interview!

Comments

[cskazaam.livejournal.com]

Aww, those lyrics for Your Star are so sad! And it sounds so much like Seph in the fic. I think it would fit perfectly as the image song!^^

Hmm... The Only One does seem to sound like Genesis, though since I've been keeping myself in the dark about him for the most part, I probably don't understand them as well as I could. XD

And the Hand of Sorrow definitely fits Genesis, Seph, and Angeal! That one really sounds so sad. Makes you wish there was some way to just prevent all the awful things from happening.

Do you mind if I ask for those songs?^^ I thought for sure you had sent the Hand of Sorrow before, but I can't seem to find it. XD

Yay for cute pics!^^ There's never enough. I've got some more I can dig out, too.^^

XD. So many wonderful choices! Maybe you could stick the angst and fluff in the same story? But then that doesn't solve the problem of whether to stick with the current angst or not... XD

Yay! I'm glad you've decided to write the mind-control fic.^^ And I'm looking forward to seeing how the scene with Angeal and Genesis turns out, but it's gonna be so heartbreaking! **sniff**

**reads interview** Wow, that's really interesting! He says that Zack's cheerful and optimistic, and yet not. I wish he could have elaborated on that some more.

And he says to go out and play CC!^^ We can hardly refuse if Zack's voice actor himself says so! XD

[wngdngl.livejournal.com]

Ooh, good songs there. Someone should make a CC fan song listing. One song I'm reminded of is "How to Save a Life".

And yay for RP's! The last one gave me chills. I wonder though, how do you do an RP when there's only really one character present?

[amanechan.livejournal.com]

Oooh, those songs fit really well, especially Hand of Sorrow. I still love Welcome to the Black Parade for SOLDIER. XP Though I guess overall that one fits Zack better than the others. XD

...I was kinda uncertain how to do Angeal at first in the RP last night, tbh. XD I mean, he acts generally pretty stoic, but most of the time when he's upset he just seems really angry. XD; But I think it turned out well in the end. The stuff between Angeal and Zack was amazing. o.o

*pets the interview* Now I have this mental image of Kenichi going, "I want YOU to play Crisis Core!"