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I used to be nuts about Where in the World is Carmen Sandiego? when I was a kid. X3 Specifically, I loved Greg and Rockapella (I had a major crush on Sean!), and I found the Chief very cool. I liked Carmen herself, but I hated most of her henchpeople. LOL. They annoyed the heck out of me. I liked Kneemoi, though.
Sometime in the ... I dunno whether it was the second or third season, but something happened in one of the Chief's Office sketches that freaked me out so badly I did not want to watch the show anymore. I later tried to convince myself it was a dream, because when I have too much of something, I end up dreaming about it in often unflattering ways. XD; And I didn't want to believe I'd really seen it.
Mom tried to help me get over the fear and to enjoy the show again, but she was only partially successful. I was just too afraid of seeing that in the reruns, so I stopped watching after a while.
Fast-forward many years later, I'm still avoiding the show like the plague. Kaze finds the theme song and I listen to it, but can't really enjoy it because I'm thinking about that thing and wondering again if it was real. I try to find out, but I can't find anything anywhere. I convince myself again that it was a dream, that PBS wouldn't have allowed something that bizarre and creepy, etc.
Few months later ... a few days ago, I get extremely nostalgic about Rockapella again, thanks to Kaze. ♥ And I want to see them in action again. I watched a clip of the ending of an episode and they were singing the Carmen song, and I felt the old familiar thrill and squee. I also dug up a clip Crystal Rose had found a while back that I'd never been able to bring myself to watch because of avoiding the show. The clip was hilarious, by the way! LOL, snowball.
Today ... I finally found out, courtesy of Wikipedia, what I've both needed and dreaded to know all these years.
What I hoped was a dream really was on the show. **shudders.**
Maybe I wasn't able to find out several months ago because I wasn't ready to accept it then. XD; I'm hoping now that I know I can put it behind me and just enjoy the good stuff the show had to offer. And of course, I must be careful never to find that episode. XD; No way in Heck do I want to see that sequence again. I can honestly say it's had a lasting negative effect on me, and not just where the show is concerned. I think I'm still a little shaken to find out I really saw it.
On a much more cheerful note ... have I ever said that I think my first-ever hurt/comfort scenario involved Sean? XD; I had Mom make these paper dolls of Rockapella and we'd act out stuff. I orchestrated h/c. ♥ I was five or six.
I still wish I knew how I learned the idea of h/c. LOL. I don't remember if it was because of the Little Audrey cartoon with the bird or if it started before that. The cartoon definitely helped, in any case.
Sometime in the ... I dunno whether it was the second or third season, but something happened in one of the Chief's Office sketches that freaked me out so badly I did not want to watch the show anymore. I later tried to convince myself it was a dream, because when I have too much of something, I end up dreaming about it in often unflattering ways. XD; And I didn't want to believe I'd really seen it.
Mom tried to help me get over the fear and to enjoy the show again, but she was only partially successful. I was just too afraid of seeing that in the reruns, so I stopped watching after a while.
Fast-forward many years later, I'm still avoiding the show like the plague. Kaze finds the theme song and I listen to it, but can't really enjoy it because I'm thinking about that thing and wondering again if it was real. I try to find out, but I can't find anything anywhere. I convince myself again that it was a dream, that PBS wouldn't have allowed something that bizarre and creepy, etc.
Few months later ... a few days ago, I get extremely nostalgic about Rockapella again, thanks to Kaze. ♥ And I want to see them in action again. I watched a clip of the ending of an episode and they were singing the Carmen song, and I felt the old familiar thrill and squee. I also dug up a clip Crystal Rose had found a while back that I'd never been able to bring myself to watch because of avoiding the show. The clip was hilarious, by the way! LOL, snowball.
Today ... I finally found out, courtesy of Wikipedia, what I've both needed and dreaded to know all these years.
What I hoped was a dream really was on the show. **shudders.**
Maybe I wasn't able to find out several months ago because I wasn't ready to accept it then. XD; I'm hoping now that I know I can put it behind me and just enjoy the good stuff the show had to offer. And of course, I must be careful never to find that episode. XD; No way in Heck do I want to see that sequence again. I can honestly say it's had a lasting negative effect on me, and not just where the show is concerned. I think I'm still a little shaken to find out I really saw it.
On a much more cheerful note ... have I ever said that I think my first-ever hurt/comfort scenario involved Sean? XD; I had Mom make these paper dolls of Rockapella and we'd act out stuff. I orchestrated h/c. ♥ I was five or six.
I still wish I knew how I learned the idea of h/c. LOL. I don't remember if it was because of the Little Audrey cartoon with the bird or if it started before that. The cartoon definitely helped, in any case.
