Crush types.
Jun. 11th, 2016 04:05 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
ladybug_archiveIt's always so interesting the way my mind works concerning guys. Crocker from Kojak is a really good-looking guy and he's kind and good and really feels for people. I like him a lot. And yet it seems to be Stavros, George Savalas's character, that I tend to actually crush on. It kind of makes me go "... Why?" And yet I hate that "Why," because it makes me feel like people would think there's something wrong with crushing on Stavros or even that I wonder if there's something wrong or off about it and I know that I am influenced by worldly standards of what make someone crush-worthy even if I don't want to be (and even if I crush anyway ... not that I have any say in who I crush on, really).
Stavros is, well, rather heavyset (his nickname is Fatso). But he's sweet and kind and a very sensitive person. He loves plants and actually keeps some at his desk in the squad room. Once he commented that it was an awesome responsibility to look after the plants. And I guess I just find that utterly adorable. When Mom was given a plant for Mother's Day this year and I decided it looked like a "masculine" plant instead of a "feminine" plant, I named it George. (We also have an azalea at the moment and have had it for a year, but I very creatively named it Azalea. **headdesk.** Although I had a reason.... I was thinking of the female villain of The Prince of Darkness Affair, as that is the only place I've heard the name before and I really like it. Also, I adore those episodes because ... well, four times the H.M. characters. Buwahaha....)
I do have crushes on people that would probably be more accepted as crush-worthy by the world as a whole, and yet even there it's sometimes people who are ignored in favor of others, like how I usually crush on the bosses more than the employees who're supposed to be the real swoon-worthy ones. And I generally like the employees a lot too, but for some reason I tend to gravitate to their bosses. They're all good and kind people, so it seems like logically I should crush on them all. Why is my brain so selective and why does it make the selections it does? I don't think I'll ever have the answers to those questions.
Stavros is, well, rather heavyset (his nickname is Fatso). But he's sweet and kind and a very sensitive person. He loves plants and actually keeps some at his desk in the squad room. Once he commented that it was an awesome responsibility to look after the plants. And I guess I just find that utterly adorable. When Mom was given a plant for Mother's Day this year and I decided it looked like a "masculine" plant instead of a "feminine" plant, I named it George. (We also have an azalea at the moment and have had it for a year, but I very creatively named it Azalea. **headdesk.** Although I had a reason.... I was thinking of the female villain of The Prince of Darkness Affair, as that is the only place I've heard the name before and I really like it. Also, I adore those episodes because ... well, four times the H.M. characters. Buwahaha....)
I do have crushes on people that would probably be more accepted as crush-worthy by the world as a whole, and yet even there it's sometimes people who are ignored in favor of others, like how I usually crush on the bosses more than the employees who're supposed to be the real swoon-worthy ones. And I generally like the employees a lot too, but for some reason I tend to gravitate to their bosses. They're all good and kind people, so it seems like logically I should crush on them all. Why is my brain so selective and why does it make the selections it does? I don't think I'll ever have the answers to those questions.
