*sigh.*

I wish people would tell me more what they want when we set out to RP. That's the way Des and I always did it. We planned it out carefully so that each of us would have fun and get to do the things we wanted. If they won't tell me what they want, then I'll just wander off in my own direction with things and perhaps inadvertently change the whole plot from what was planned. That's happened more than once, with more than one person. I never really feel like the RP's are mine. They're theirs, with me following aimlessly and sometimes altering stuff. And if I'm getting what I want, but they aren't getting what they want, that isn't fair. I want them to do everything they want to do, anytime they feel like it. All I ask in return is a few little scenes of h/c and angst and fluff (and for certain things to be respected where Marik is concerned). That's all I really want. But I don't want anyone to feel that they have to forfeit what they want for me. Heck, if they can put up with my idiosyncracies, why can't I put up with theirs? I can, and do, and I want the RPs to be fun for everyone. I luv surprises, and don't want them to stop, but I also don't want to be the cause of changing everything in the plots.

This whole thing has been festering for a long time now. Finally had to write about it.