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**has been feeling very discouraged the last few days and it came to a head a while ago.** Now I'm in a mood where I don't feel like writing anything, even though I've got plenty to write. I feel like I'd like to do some pointless hurt/comfort. Hurt/comfort and the character relations of such can go a long way in making me perk up. But if I try to write some, I'll probably feel blah about that too, like I did a few days ago.
Right now I honestly don't know if I want to bother posting that ficlit with the minor students at all. I've started adding on to it, and will finish it for myself, but I've never been quite sure what to think of it and I don't know if I want to share it.
I thought I had the Springheel Jack fic almost done too, save the last scene, but something felt really wrong. I finally realized what it was; the climax was all incorrect. What I had as the climax should have been a second encounter. So I changed that. Now I need a new climax. The story will get so long I'll end up wondering if I should post it in chapters.
And does anyone who has seen the Princess Tutu dub or at least the etudes feel like the dub staff just does not really like Autor's character? The voice actor was directed to make him sound snobbish and stuck-up in a way the Japanese VA just didn't. The lines were usually the same, but the delivery was vastly different.
And in the etudes (which explain some of the music on the show), Autor is only mentioned pretty much to be mocked. Dark Mytho comments on the fifth one, "I was considering having Autor co-host this etude, but he's quite the egotist, don't you think?" However, I do think that one was meant as a pot calling the kettle black joke, as Dark Mytho is very much an egotist. Fakir didn't even comment; he just said "Moving along." LOL.
It's the etude on the sixth DVD that really kind of bugs me. For one thing, Neko-Sensei hosts (which is fine) and has some of the oneshot students as co-hosts (also fine). But for some reason, Autor is also present, even though he's not even in the ballet division. He doesn't get any lines, however, which is another thing that irritates me about the etudes. Why won't they let him speak? The only time he's mentioned is when Neko-Sensei asks for someone to answer a question and then sighs and says, "Someone besides you, Mr. Autor." Making it sound like Autor's around all the time in the ballet class being a know-it-all. Now, I wouldn't be surprised if he's that way in the *music* class, where he actually *goes*, but just ... aurgh. Why mention him as being present for a *ballet students'* lesson in music if they aren't even going to let him talk?! If he's there, it would be more likely that it's specifically to offer some of his knowledge.
And then there's the dub staff's commentary on Autor during episode #24, which I've already talked about a couple of times. They do cover his insecurities, which I was happy about, but I simply cannot agree with the musings that since Autor is more interested in the power aspect, he's someone whom Drosselmeyer would prefer having as a direct descendent. Why does Drosselmeyer ignore him completely if that's the case? And the more I watch Autor's episodes, the more I really am convinced that he's an innocent boy, unaware of the immense evils Drosselmeyer is capable of (despite being aware that Story-Spinning powers can be drastically misused and in spite of believing that they are being controlled by Drosselmeyer's Story). Drosselmeyer, I think, would only be interested in him to manipulate him, knowing of his innocence and idolization of Drosselmeyer. But Drosselmeyer didn't find him worth acknowledging even once. The closest he came was mocking Autor's replica of Drosselmeyer's study, though he never spoke of Autor. He just froze Autor in time and walked past him as if he was nothing.
I dunno, between the way the English VA was directed and the etudes and the staff commentary, I really think that the dub staff largely has a surface and shallow view of Autor. Otherwise, for instance, why would the etudes only mock him and never even let him speak?
... And heh. Ranting on that actually felt pretty good. Maybe I'll feel like working on a story now.
Right now I honestly don't know if I want to bother posting that ficlit with the minor students at all. I've started adding on to it, and will finish it for myself, but I've never been quite sure what to think of it and I don't know if I want to share it.
I thought I had the Springheel Jack fic almost done too, save the last scene, but something felt really wrong. I finally realized what it was; the climax was all incorrect. What I had as the climax should have been a second encounter. So I changed that. Now I need a new climax. The story will get so long I'll end up wondering if I should post it in chapters.
And does anyone who has seen the Princess Tutu dub or at least the etudes feel like the dub staff just does not really like Autor's character? The voice actor was directed to make him sound snobbish and stuck-up in a way the Japanese VA just didn't. The lines were usually the same, but the delivery was vastly different.
And in the etudes (which explain some of the music on the show), Autor is only mentioned pretty much to be mocked. Dark Mytho comments on the fifth one, "I was considering having Autor co-host this etude, but he's quite the egotist, don't you think?" However, I do think that one was meant as a pot calling the kettle black joke, as Dark Mytho is very much an egotist. Fakir didn't even comment; he just said "Moving along." LOL.
It's the etude on the sixth DVD that really kind of bugs me. For one thing, Neko-Sensei hosts (which is fine) and has some of the oneshot students as co-hosts (also fine). But for some reason, Autor is also present, even though he's not even in the ballet division. He doesn't get any lines, however, which is another thing that irritates me about the etudes. Why won't they let him speak? The only time he's mentioned is when Neko-Sensei asks for someone to answer a question and then sighs and says, "Someone besides you, Mr. Autor." Making it sound like Autor's around all the time in the ballet class being a know-it-all. Now, I wouldn't be surprised if he's that way in the *music* class, where he actually *goes*, but just ... aurgh. Why mention him as being present for a *ballet students'* lesson in music if they aren't even going to let him talk?! If he's there, it would be more likely that it's specifically to offer some of his knowledge.
And then there's the dub staff's commentary on Autor during episode #24, which I've already talked about a couple of times. They do cover his insecurities, which I was happy about, but I simply cannot agree with the musings that since Autor is more interested in the power aspect, he's someone whom Drosselmeyer would prefer having as a direct descendent. Why does Drosselmeyer ignore him completely if that's the case? And the more I watch Autor's episodes, the more I really am convinced that he's an innocent boy, unaware of the immense evils Drosselmeyer is capable of (despite being aware that Story-Spinning powers can be drastically misused and in spite of believing that they are being controlled by Drosselmeyer's Story). Drosselmeyer, I think, would only be interested in him to manipulate him, knowing of his innocence and idolization of Drosselmeyer. But Drosselmeyer didn't find him worth acknowledging even once. The closest he came was mocking Autor's replica of Drosselmeyer's study, though he never spoke of Autor. He just froze Autor in time and walked past him as if he was nothing.
I dunno, between the way the English VA was directed and the etudes and the staff commentary, I really think that the dub staff largely has a surface and shallow view of Autor. Otherwise, for instance, why would the etudes only mock him and never even let him speak?
... And heh. Ranting on that actually felt pretty good. Maybe I'll feel like working on a story now.
