... Whyyyy?

I honestly am getting a little annoyed with myself that I can't seem to stop being fascinated with the thought of Autor/Ahiru as a pairing in the back of my mind. I never write or draw them as such; they're always close in a familial sense (as will be shown in a short blurb I'm attaching. I promise this one is not weird). And yet, even though I adore their friendship in my timeline (it's my preference over having them as a couple) and I love Fakir/Ahiru and want them to be together, I can't stop thinking of Autor/Ahiru romantically. A rather bizarre dream I had isn't helping, either.

I honestly feel like I'm blaspheming the fandom, but I don't know how to make my mind shut up.

Worse is that I'm afraid it may be at least partially because Autor is the one I crush on, and that I'm projecting my feelings for him in the thought of him and Ahiru as a pairing. **crawls in a hole.**

And more blasphemous thoughts: sometimes Fakir and Ahiru's arguments make me think of them as acting like quarreling siblings rather than being in a potentially romantic scenario. These thoughts don't really last long, but they do come.

Here, have a nice blurb that is fully in support of Fakir/Ahiru as a pairing and Autor & Ahiru as a close friendship.


( Reflections )