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ladybug_archiveI have a long oneshot almost done, a chapter almost done, and another chapter I need to start. And instead I'm craving to write a random hurt/comfort blurb. But upon trying to write it, I feel kind of "eh" about that too, as it's really just expanding on a situation I RPed out and it doesn't feel like I can really add much of worth to it. I don't seem to get much done in the evenings anymore; usually mornings seem to be when I do most of my writing these days. I feel so restless in the evenings and tend to not hang around too long unless it's the weekend.
I have been pondering more on the axe murderer fic, which I'm still determined to write. (The Halloween prompt on my table is being saved for it.) I think now Ahiru does have to leave Autor after he's "killed", and she goes to find Fakir, who is being attacked by the creep. Somehow she and Fakir beat the guy back and then they're talking and she tells him about Autor. And that's when Lilie, who was supposedly killed too, shows up. Then Ahiru and Fakir realize what's really going on and go to try to revive Autor. And either they do or Autor is already coming to on his own, having realized it's an illusion. I haven't decided on that yet. But I did want at least some of the victims to need Ahiru's help realizing that they aren't really dead. I'm just unsure how much to dwell on Autor specifically because he's always getting handed the worst deals in my fics. XD; And I don't want him to die for real anymore, and though this would only be them and him thinking he's dead while he isn't, some people might think I've done it again and be mad. LOL. I'm unsure of whether to even keep Autor as a victim at all or if it should be Fakir instead, but I love Ahiru's words to Autor when she thinks he's dead and that she has to leave and find Fakir before he's killed too. ;__;
Other possibility #1: Fakir is the victim instead and Ahiru tells the same thing to him, believing she has to find Autor before he might be killed.
Problem: If it was Fakir, I wonder if Ahiru would be so devastated she wouldn't be able to pull herself together enough to do that. ;__; However, she was able to do so in Akt #13, but their relationship hadn't deepened as much yet, plus there was the fact that Mytho was definitely in trouble right then, no question about it.
Possibility #2: Both Autor and Fakir are victims, but Autor revives first and comes to Ahiru when she's heartbroken over Fakir.
Problem: This would eliminate the dark humor of Lilie being the one to make Ahiru realize what's going on, as she complains her death wasn't tragic enough. XD; Though Lilie could and would still complain about that even if she wasn't the one to make Ahiru realize.
Possibility #3: Both boys are with Ahiru and one of them is "killed." Ahiru is devastated, but the other convinces her they have to go and catch up to the murderer before there's any other victims. Ahiru gives the same speech to the "dead" one before they leave.
Problem: It might lessen the impact if Ahiru isn't alone with the "killed" person?
Possibility #4: Only Fakir is a victim, and Autor finds Ahiru then. Lilie then still appears as planned.
Problem: It eliminates the battle had with Ahiru and whoever didn't "die" against the axe murderer, before she learns the other one isn't dead.
Possibility #5: Neither Fakir or Autor is a victim. Ahiru may make the speech about having to go in order to try to save others from being killed to Lilie and Pike.
Problem: I really thought one of the boys should get it. XD;
I have been pondering more on the axe murderer fic, which I'm still determined to write. (The Halloween prompt on my table is being saved for it.) I think now Ahiru does have to leave Autor after he's "killed", and she goes to find Fakir, who is being attacked by the creep. Somehow she and Fakir beat the guy back and then they're talking and she tells him about Autor. And that's when Lilie, who was supposedly killed too, shows up. Then Ahiru and Fakir realize what's really going on and go to try to revive Autor. And either they do or Autor is already coming to on his own, having realized it's an illusion. I haven't decided on that yet. But I did want at least some of the victims to need Ahiru's help realizing that they aren't really dead. I'm just unsure how much to dwell on Autor specifically because he's always getting handed the worst deals in my fics. XD; And I don't want him to die for real anymore, and though this would only be them and him thinking he's dead while he isn't, some people might think I've done it again and be mad. LOL. I'm unsure of whether to even keep Autor as a victim at all or if it should be Fakir instead, but I love Ahiru's words to Autor when she thinks he's dead and that she has to leave and find Fakir before he's killed too. ;__;
Other possibility #1: Fakir is the victim instead and Ahiru tells the same thing to him, believing she has to find Autor before he might be killed.
Problem: If it was Fakir, I wonder if Ahiru would be so devastated she wouldn't be able to pull herself together enough to do that. ;__; However, she was able to do so in Akt #13, but their relationship hadn't deepened as much yet, plus there was the fact that Mytho was definitely in trouble right then, no question about it.
Possibility #2: Both Autor and Fakir are victims, but Autor revives first and comes to Ahiru when she's heartbroken over Fakir.
Problem: This would eliminate the dark humor of Lilie being the one to make Ahiru realize what's going on, as she complains her death wasn't tragic enough. XD; Though Lilie could and would still complain about that even if she wasn't the one to make Ahiru realize.
Possibility #3: Both boys are with Ahiru and one of them is "killed." Ahiru is devastated, but the other convinces her they have to go and catch up to the murderer before there's any other victims. Ahiru gives the same speech to the "dead" one before they leave.
Problem: It might lessen the impact if Ahiru isn't alone with the "killed" person?
Possibility #4: Only Fakir is a victim, and Autor finds Ahiru then. Lilie then still appears as planned.
Problem: It eliminates the battle had with Ahiru and whoever didn't "die" against the axe murderer, before she learns the other one isn't dead.
Possibility #5: Neither Fakir or Autor is a victim. Ahiru may make the speech about having to go in order to try to save others from being killed to Lilie and Pike.
Problem: I really thought one of the boys should get it. XD;
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Date: 2010-05-28 07:43 am (UTC)Could you do a different h/c blurb so it would be more than just expanding on the RP?
Bleh, I totally know what you mean about feeling restless. **had been feeling that way until starting the fic.** And even now I sometimes have to fight it back and quit procrastinating on something. XD;
Hmm.... Personally, I think #1 is out of the question, since I don't think she could just run off and leave Fakir. ....And I think I'd be kind of disappointed if she did. XD;
#2: I rather liked Lilie being the one to show Ahiru what was going on.
#3: This one could work, but yeah, I think it would lessen the impact....
#4: This could work too, depending on how much you'd want the battle.... I think a battle of some kind, when they still thought that the stakes were death, would be intense, though. o.o
#5: I think one of the boys should get it too. XD
Hmmm.... Another option would be to have Autor be "killed," and when she finds Fakir, maybe it really looks like they're going to win, but then he's completely, unexpectedly killed, too.... And then Lilie shows up. So she would need to help Fakir realize that he's not dead, but maybe Autor would be able to revive, and they'd run into him on the way to try to help him? That way you'd still have all the elements you liked, but not having Autor really be dead.
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Date: 2010-05-28 07:54 am (UTC)And admittedly, I wouldn't have such h/c fun if the only victims were people like Lilie and Pike. Gosh, that sounds so awful and Drosselmeyer-ish.**nods.** Maybe, but instead of focusing energy on that, I really should work on an established project. XD
LOL. Ah, procrastination. Such a frustrating thing.
Well, she wouldn't be leaving Fakir except that she'd think he really was dead, but I dunno, it does seem like that would devastate her so much that she might not be able to do it, even though she'd want to try to save other potential victims. ;__; But then I keep going back to thinking of Akt 13 and how she was able to put her grief aside to help Mytho....
Oooh, I like that scenario. o.o That might work! So heartbreaking, though, for Fakir to be a victim too, especially under those circumstances. ;___; I think that would definitely make a bigger impact, however.
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Date: 2010-05-28 04:22 pm (UTC)Yep, I totally know what you mean! We are so cruel to our favorite characters. XD;XD Probably. But, you know, if the urge to write something different is strong enough.... I know *I* would totally fail in resisting it. XD
**nods.** Yeah, exactly. I kinda think she wouldn't be able to leave, unless Fakir himself had told her to. Then she'd have to, to fulfill his last wishes. ;___;
Yeah, totally! ;___; Especially after Autor dying, and being so sure that they won the battle. Ahiru would be so horrified and devastated! ;___;
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Date: 2010-05-28 04:34 pm (UTC)It's not that strong; mostly I'm feeling bleh. So I just hung out on YouTube watching clips of Charles Nelson Reilly. LOL. But I may try to start the next chapter of the library fic....
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So horrible! **hugs them all.**
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Date: 2010-05-28 12:32 pm (UTC)And wow, what a fic dilemma... I like Kaze's suggestiong. ^^
(Meh, sorry for the short entry. **likely flees again**)
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Date: 2010-05-28 03:07 pm (UTC)Yeah, I really do too. I'll probably end up doing it a lot like that. X3
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Date: 2010-05-29 02:16 am (UTC)*cough* Speaking of lame evenings, allow me to apologize again for the epic fail that was our "conversation" the other night T__T I was planning on staying on longer......Eh, I like Kaze's idea X3 Make it so they're in such a hurry to... I dunno, escape, that they have to leave Autor's "corpse" behind or something. I agree that Ahiru wouldn't be able to leave Fakir ;__;
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Date: 2010-05-29 04:13 am (UTC)XD It's okay, it happens.**nods.** Well, more like Ahiru is alone with him and she feels that she has to leave him to try to save Fakir. ;__; Otherwise, she might not have been able to pull herself together enough to leave him. Seeing him fall out of the art closet with the axe in his chest was a horrifying, gruesome shock. o.o