... Well, that was unexpected.
Apr. 27th, 2015 02:49 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
ladybug_archiveSo we're watching a cheesy family movie and there's this retired sailor who's dying. He makes friends with a young kid and the scene right before he falls into a coma has them talking and he tells the kid not to feel bad for him; that he's had a good life.
And I promptly have to melt down. Not because of the scene itself, per se (even though I am prone to crying while watching death scenes in movies), but because of what it made me think of. Retired sailors make me think of Captain Scofield, naturally, and that makes me think of Chrissy, naturally. I melted down sort of wondering if that's what he and Luke might tell me to try to comfort me when I'm feeling sad thinking that they died too young. I could imagine Chrissy saying it, from what I know about him. I hope they're both happy where they are.
I wonder sometimes what prompts these meltdowns. They don't happen over every actor I like who's dead and they didn't used to happen at all. I don't even remember it happening over Simon, and I adore him. I remember it happening for certain over William Talman, Wesley Lau, and now Chrissy and Luke. Maybe it has happened over Simon too, though. I have a hard time believing it wouldn't have.
It's rather awkward when it happens around other people, since I then feel compelled to try to hide that it's happening. I managed to hold off on utterly bawling until I was alone, thankfully.
And my original idea for the Mainsail Pony was that she would represent Giovanna, another character in that Riptide episode, instead of a made-up daughter. I think I finally have that out of my system and now I can't imagine myself writing a story like that. Only problem is, now I'm back to kind of wanting to write a story where Giovanna has some possibly romantic attachment to Captain Scofield. I'm not sure I can picture her being into May-December romance, though. Maybe I could write it as them coming to form a close platonic bond and Nick keeps worrying that it's romantic and feeling bad for Cody, who has a crush on her according to Nick.
And I promptly have to melt down. Not because of the scene itself, per se (even though I am prone to crying while watching death scenes in movies), but because of what it made me think of. Retired sailors make me think of Captain Scofield, naturally, and that makes me think of Chrissy, naturally. I melted down sort of wondering if that's what he and Luke might tell me to try to comfort me when I'm feeling sad thinking that they died too young. I could imagine Chrissy saying it, from what I know about him. I hope they're both happy where they are.
I wonder sometimes what prompts these meltdowns. They don't happen over every actor I like who's dead and they didn't used to happen at all. I don't even remember it happening over Simon, and I adore him. I remember it happening for certain over William Talman, Wesley Lau, and now Chrissy and Luke. Maybe it has happened over Simon too, though. I have a hard time believing it wouldn't have.
It's rather awkward when it happens around other people, since I then feel compelled to try to hide that it's happening. I managed to hold off on utterly bawling until I was alone, thankfully.
And my original idea for the Mainsail Pony was that she would represent Giovanna, another character in that Riptide episode, instead of a made-up daughter. I think I finally have that out of my system and now I can't imagine myself writing a story like that. Only problem is, now I'm back to kind of wanting to write a story where Giovanna has some possibly romantic attachment to Captain Scofield. I'm not sure I can picture her being into May-December romance, though. Maybe I could write it as them coming to form a close platonic bond and Nick keeps worrying that it's romantic and feeling bad for Cody, who has a crush on her according to Nick.
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