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Writer's Block: Divided Self
Mar. 18th, 2009 10:19 pm[Error: unknown template qotd]
Um, heck yeah. XD; I'm very reserved in real life, unless I either really take a shine to someone and there's some common ground to talk about if I introduce myself, or if I have to come out of my shell to talk to someone about something. Though I suppose online I'm also fairly reserved in some circles.
On the opposite end of the spectrum, I also get frustrated easily. I very rarely blog about such, because I either don't feel it's worth it or I start typing, but I calm down before posting and decide not to. Also, I don't like looking back on such entries, and I don't believe in deleting entries, so I often don't write them to begin with. The few times I ever do blog about something upsetting, it means I've been pushed to my absolute limit. And it will either be custom locked or private.
One thing I do both places is that I'll hide behind a smile and a cheerful mood. (I consider that the line "I've got grins piled up to the sky" from Elliott's song Kingdom of Shy fits perfectly in many cases.) Usually if I'm really upset I'll tell someone online in private, but sometimes I don't even do that. It all depends on what I'm upset about and why, and if I really want to talk about it. Sometimes I'd rather just use my facade. Sometimes I can actually make myself really become happy if I pretend to be. XD; Other times that just won't work.
And of course, one big thing that's different about my online self is my need for friendship hurt/comfort. That's a side of myself I just don't like to show anyone I know in real life, saving one or two people. I thought I was some kind of a freak until I found so many people online who like it too.
(And I think the first time I heard the term "hurt/comfort" was in a Diagnosis Murder community, maybe BBQBobs on Yahoo Groups. I didn't know what it meant at first, but when I realized, I knew that was the official term for my obsession. And it was thrilling when FF.net added a category for it. XD;)
Um, heck yeah. XD; I'm very reserved in real life, unless I either really take a shine to someone and there's some common ground to talk about if I introduce myself, or if I have to come out of my shell to talk to someone about something. Though I suppose online I'm also fairly reserved in some circles.
On the opposite end of the spectrum, I also get frustrated easily. I very rarely blog about such, because I either don't feel it's worth it or I start typing, but I calm down before posting and decide not to. Also, I don't like looking back on such entries, and I don't believe in deleting entries, so I often don't write them to begin with. The few times I ever do blog about something upsetting, it means I've been pushed to my absolute limit. And it will either be custom locked or private.
One thing I do both places is that I'll hide behind a smile and a cheerful mood. (I consider that the line "I've got grins piled up to the sky" from Elliott's song Kingdom of Shy fits perfectly in many cases.) Usually if I'm really upset I'll tell someone online in private, but sometimes I don't even do that. It all depends on what I'm upset about and why, and if I really want to talk about it. Sometimes I'd rather just use my facade. Sometimes I can actually make myself really become happy if I pretend to be. XD; Other times that just won't work.
And of course, one big thing that's different about my online self is my need for friendship hurt/comfort. That's a side of myself I just don't like to show anyone I know in real life, saving one or two people. I thought I was some kind of a freak until I found so many people online who like it too.
(And I think the first time I heard the term "hurt/comfort" was in a Diagnosis Murder community, maybe BBQBobs on Yahoo Groups. I didn't know what it meant at first, but when I realized, I knew that was the official term for my obsession. And it was thrilling when FF.net added a category for it. XD;)
