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That is a random squee, because I am absolutely bouncing off the walls inwardly squeeing and I'm not fully sure why. I got very excited over an unexpected fanart earlier, but I think that for an extended squee like this there must be more to it.
Anyway, more to the point. Does anyone here think I woobiefy Autor in my writings? I'm just curious, because I saw an old comment from someone (from way before I started writing Tutu fics) who said that some authors tended to over-sympathize and woobiefy Autor (and she said that she herself had been guilty of that in the past). And I don't think I've personally seen any of those fics, if by woobiefy we are using this definition: http://tvtropes.org/pmwiki/pmwiki.php/Main/TheWoobie And I apologize for the link; I was going to copy and paste, but I don't know where to draw the line.
I'm kind of getting the idea that a woobie usually is portrayed as wholly sympathetic and as though they've done no wrong and is quite possibly very sweet (save for a couple of the sub-categories). Since I try to keep the characters human and leave in their faults, I don't *think* it applies.
Autor has experienced a lot of sorrows, both in my version of his backstory and during the current timeline, but even though I portray him as a sweet, kind person deep down, he also snarks, sneers, smirks, teases, acts arrogant, etc. However, I do worry wondering if he expresses too much regret over his past mistakes, mainly falling to the darkness. I always fear that someone will eventually tell me he shouldn't feel that way/that he should get over it/etc. But it deeply impacted and horrified him. And he doesn't really talk much about it with anyone unless they bring it up. Mostly he internalizes his feelings and sorrows. And he's been trying to move beyond that and forgive himself for his fall.
The sub-category Stoic Woobie might fit a lot of my portrayals of many characters (including Autor). LOL. As long as it doesn't mean the character has to be OOC.
Then I worry wondering again, as I have many times, if just portraying Autor as nice behind the arrogant attitude is like the Draco in Leather Pants trope mentioned on the Woobie page. But then I argue with myself that No, it isn't, because it's canon. I'm really positive that the creator is trying to show that Autor is really a good person; actions throughout the show depict this, and the follow-up script only adds to it.
His fascination/obsession with power is a definite fault of his, and I admit to wanting to mature his character by having him see what a burden power really is, but even after his fall into the darkness in my fics, he's still interested in power to a certain extent and various powerful phenomena still fascinate him (even though he tries to control the level of his fascination). But I worry wondering if it completely destroys his character to mature him beyond the fascination with power and have him see that it isn't so great. Is that wrong? Should I not do that?
I'm not the only one who does that, however, and part of me honestly can't see what's wrong with it. Especially when I'm just trying to develop the character beyond what we see on-screen. And when I think other people's portrayals of Autor likewise are very excellent and only expand his character, rather than destroy it. I try to develop all the characters, really. Ahiru grows more mature, even though she retains her sweetness and innocence. Fakir has various issues that he has to work his way through, including his rocky friendship with Autor. So even though I keep worrying about it, I keep doing what I want in stories, because in the end I know I'm trying to preserve the characters' personalities, faults and all, even though I'm trying to give them a broader understanding and knowledge too.
I dunno, though, in general TV Tropes and all of these pop culture categories and phrases make my brain hurt. It's almost impossible to keep them all separate, even moreso when there seems to only be a fine line between some sub-categories. And it just seems like such a huge waste of time trying to dissect all these little tropes and cliches and what have you. Especially when different people are going to have different ideas of who fits which trope and whatnot. Plus, I've always kind of seen it as, in the end, pointing out how freaking cliche absolutely everything is. Which I'd rather not be told. I don't think that's at all how the site is meant to be taken, but that's how I see it, and one reason why it's never appealed much to me. I don't like feeling like the things I love are, in the end, just full of cliches or are cliches themselves. And it's even more discouraging to have to feel like your fanworks are that way, too.
Case in point, this whole entry is one big waste of time when I should be writing a fic. But it's a lot of inner confusion and conflict I've had for a while that's finally spilling out. Maybe I can come to terms better now that I've laid it all bare.
Anyway, more to the point. Does anyone here think I woobiefy Autor in my writings? I'm just curious, because I saw an old comment from someone (from way before I started writing Tutu fics) who said that some authors tended to over-sympathize and woobiefy Autor (and she said that she herself had been guilty of that in the past). And I don't think I've personally seen any of those fics, if by woobiefy we are using this definition: http://tvtropes.org/pmwiki/pmwiki.php/Main/TheWoobie And I apologize for the link; I was going to copy and paste, but I don't know where to draw the line.
I'm kind of getting the idea that a woobie usually is portrayed as wholly sympathetic and as though they've done no wrong and is quite possibly very sweet (save for a couple of the sub-categories). Since I try to keep the characters human and leave in their faults, I don't *think* it applies.
Autor has experienced a lot of sorrows, both in my version of his backstory and during the current timeline, but even though I portray him as a sweet, kind person deep down, he also snarks, sneers, smirks, teases, acts arrogant, etc. However, I do worry wondering if he expresses too much regret over his past mistakes, mainly falling to the darkness. I always fear that someone will eventually tell me he shouldn't feel that way/that he should get over it/etc. But it deeply impacted and horrified him. And he doesn't really talk much about it with anyone unless they bring it up. Mostly he internalizes his feelings and sorrows. And he's been trying to move beyond that and forgive himself for his fall.
The sub-category Stoic Woobie might fit a lot of my portrayals of many characters (including Autor). LOL. As long as it doesn't mean the character has to be OOC.
Then I worry wondering again, as I have many times, if just portraying Autor as nice behind the arrogant attitude is like the Draco in Leather Pants trope mentioned on the Woobie page. But then I argue with myself that No, it isn't, because it's canon. I'm really positive that the creator is trying to show that Autor is really a good person; actions throughout the show depict this, and the follow-up script only adds to it.
His fascination/obsession with power is a definite fault of his, and I admit to wanting to mature his character by having him see what a burden power really is, but even after his fall into the darkness in my fics, he's still interested in power to a certain extent and various powerful phenomena still fascinate him (even though he tries to control the level of his fascination). But I worry wondering if it completely destroys his character to mature him beyond the fascination with power and have him see that it isn't so great. Is that wrong? Should I not do that?
I'm not the only one who does that, however, and part of me honestly can't see what's wrong with it. Especially when I'm just trying to develop the character beyond what we see on-screen. And when I think other people's portrayals of Autor likewise are very excellent and only expand his character, rather than destroy it. I try to develop all the characters, really. Ahiru grows more mature, even though she retains her sweetness and innocence. Fakir has various issues that he has to work his way through, including his rocky friendship with Autor. So even though I keep worrying about it, I keep doing what I want in stories, because in the end I know I'm trying to preserve the characters' personalities, faults and all, even though I'm trying to give them a broader understanding and knowledge too.
I dunno, though, in general TV Tropes and all of these pop culture categories and phrases make my brain hurt. It's almost impossible to keep them all separate, even moreso when there seems to only be a fine line between some sub-categories. And it just seems like such a huge waste of time trying to dissect all these little tropes and cliches and what have you. Especially when different people are going to have different ideas of who fits which trope and whatnot. Plus, I've always kind of seen it as, in the end, pointing out how freaking cliche absolutely everything is. Which I'd rather not be told. I don't think that's at all how the site is meant to be taken, but that's how I see it, and one reason why it's never appealed much to me. I don't like feeling like the things I love are, in the end, just full of cliches or are cliches themselves. And it's even more discouraging to have to feel like your fanworks are that way, too.
Case in point, this whole entry is one big waste of time when I should be writing a fic. But it's a lot of inner confusion and conflict I've had for a while that's finally spilling out. Maybe I can come to terms better now that I've laid it all bare.
