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ladybug_archive... Man, I'm drained. XD; Usually after writing a big fic I'm wiped out and exhausted, but not emotionally drained. And this wasn't even the big fic I wrote recently. LOL. But I'm drained all the same. Sad fic is sad. ;___; Sometimes even a happy ending doesn't make me not be drained, though of course I'm sure it'd be more pronounced if I wrote a sad ending.
And I just wasn't satisfied with my posted fic. XD; I wanted badly to add more. So ... I did. I expanded both chapter 4 and the epilogue, and I still wonder if it needs more emotional detail all the way along. I try to say without saying when possible, but there are times when it needs to be said.
Anyway ... so right now I don't feel like working on the Bryce Canyon fic, which features more Sean h/c. Annnd I don't feel like working on the collapsed building fic, with Scott trying to keep El awake when El has a concussion. And I don't feel like working on the Engel overhaul either. XD; The next scene is to be Tristan visiting Duke's grave.
(And I don't really want to write humor right now, either. XD; I can write it when I feel like it, but I don't feel it. Maybe I need to just write something squee.)
The only thing I really want to write at the moment is my Smooth Criminal fic, but I hit a snag with it too. -____-; I wanted to open with a scene showing the crime, so I start off introducing the readers to Annie. But AURGH! **pulls on hair.** There's a reason why I can rarely stand to work with OCs, and it's because if they try to carry a scene, it comes off sounding so stupid and cheesy. I don't like the scene and I don't like Annie's grandmother's story about the Prohibition era. Maybe if I tweak it around I'll like it better. I don't know. Gah, why are OCs so difficult for me?
(Yes, this is one reason why I have a short attention span for my original works. I absolutely am not satisfied with any of the openings I tried to do for my doppelganger novel. The first needed more background information on the characters. The second was so freaking cheesy, showing backstory for my businessman but also throwing in stuff about him having to grow up at an early age/put away the fantasy novels he loved/etc. It was setting things up for Alexander's entrance, but it just wasn't executed right, even though it sounds okay as I describe it here. I don't really want to write the plot of logical businessman is thrust into a fantasy world that he believed in as a child, but stopped believing in later. It's not my forté. At all. I'd rather just write the plot of logical businessman is thrust into a fantasy world, whether or not he ever believed in it. And it seems like there was a third opening, somewhere....
For my other novel, I'm not having a problem with the characters, for once; it's more a matter of doing research/focusing long enough to get scenes done. I keep being distracted by other things I want to write more. XD But I am quite enamored by this project.
I still love my doppelganger project too; I just wish I could get it working. I really feel that I need to write this first scene first to show the meeting of the businessman and Alexander. From there, I can write scenes in any order I please.)
And I just wasn't satisfied with my posted fic. XD; I wanted badly to add more. So ... I did. I expanded both chapter 4 and the epilogue, and I still wonder if it needs more emotional detail all the way along. I try to say without saying when possible, but there are times when it needs to be said.
Anyway ... so right now I don't feel like working on the Bryce Canyon fic, which features more Sean h/c. Annnd I don't feel like working on the collapsed building fic, with Scott trying to keep El awake when El has a concussion. And I don't feel like working on the Engel overhaul either. XD; The next scene is to be Tristan visiting Duke's grave.
(And I don't really want to write humor right now, either. XD; I can write it when I feel like it, but I don't feel it. Maybe I need to just write something squee.)
The only thing I really want to write at the moment is my Smooth Criminal fic, but I hit a snag with it too. -____-; I wanted to open with a scene showing the crime, so I start off introducing the readers to Annie. But AURGH! **pulls on hair.** There's a reason why I can rarely stand to work with OCs, and it's because if they try to carry a scene, it comes off sounding so stupid and cheesy. I don't like the scene and I don't like Annie's grandmother's story about the Prohibition era. Maybe if I tweak it around I'll like it better. I don't know. Gah, why are OCs so difficult for me?
(Yes, this is one reason why I have a short attention span for my original works. I absolutely am not satisfied with any of the openings I tried to do for my doppelganger novel. The first needed more background information on the characters. The second was so freaking cheesy, showing backstory for my businessman but also throwing in stuff about him having to grow up at an early age/put away the fantasy novels he loved/etc. It was setting things up for Alexander's entrance, but it just wasn't executed right, even though it sounds okay as I describe it here. I don't really want to write the plot of logical businessman is thrust into a fantasy world that he believed in as a child, but stopped believing in later. It's not my forté. At all. I'd rather just write the plot of logical businessman is thrust into a fantasy world, whether or not he ever believed in it. And it seems like there was a third opening, somewhere....
For my other novel, I'm not having a problem with the characters, for once; it's more a matter of doing research/focusing long enough to get scenes done. I keep being distracted by other things I want to write more. XD But I am quite enamored by this project.
I still love my doppelganger project too; I just wish I could get it working. I really feel that I need to write this first scene first to show the meeting of the businessman and Alexander. From there, I can write scenes in any order I please.)
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Date: 2009-07-05 07:03 am (UTC)XD Most things I didn't believe, but I think I liked to believe or hope that there was some magical world out there where some of the characters really did exist, and you just had to go far enough to find it. XDOooh. That could be! A letter of some kind maybe? Or a hat or some important possession?
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Date: 2009-07-05 07:57 am (UTC)I liked to imagine that was true, and maybe at one time I really believed it (I hope not, because I would have been a teenager by then), but I don't anymore. XD As nice as it would be if our imaginations had so much power as to bring fictional characters to life on some real, but dream-like plane (which I've heard some people actually seem to believe), it just can't be. ;___; Still, in a magical place like the canyon, it almost seems as if stuff like LOTR could be real. X3Yep, something like that! X3
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Date: 2009-07-05 08:04 am (UTC)Yeah, it's too bad that it can't be true somehow. ;___; Though who knows, maybe in some other universe it might be possible.... And yeah, it's easy to believe that magical things could really happen in a place like the canyon. X3 I sometimes get the feeling just walking through the trees when the light is right, just because it's so peaceful and amazing. X3