Ramblings and Musings of the Insane, Philosophical Ladybug

You know, I decided to try Lauri Carrigan's album again and this time I liked it. ^^ I wonder if the problem before was simply that I was looking for a second Cherie Call, even though I told myself I wasn't. The songs don't seem so cheesy now, and the arrangements don't bother me as much.

And I have new ideas for Candy Clouds. ^^ I'm still trying to sort it all out, but now I have a better idea of how the ending will go and what the disaster will be. I'm also considering moving Starfire to Purple Skies. I'm not sure that it will fit in Candy Clouds.

I also did a bit more research on doppelgangers, but I came to the conclusion that I really can run with my ideas and not worry about conforming to anything. There doesn't seem to be too much information on this bizarre phenomena, and so I think I can bring in my concepts of a winged race of doppelgangers without any trouble. Look at how Tolkien changed ideas about the Elf race! (Though I'm certainly not claiming to be the next Tolkien. . . .)

Actually, doppelgangers are rather creepy. XD; It was telling how they're often seen shortly before the people's deaths. I certainly don't believe that they really exist, unless they're evil spirits taking on those forms to bring confusion and mayhem. But I like my idea of a race of the creatures that are both good and bad. The good ones are more like guardian angels, while the bad ones are like the doppelgangers that you hear about.

I'm more interested in developing that world of doppelgangers rather than writing a story about Alexander as an angel of death, I think. For one thing, keeping the doppelganger angle means that I don't have to worry about working in religion/my religious beliefs. I'm rather touchy when it comes to writing stuff directly religious, because I don't really want to write stuff that I don't believe in (such as angels of death; I believe that people are met at death's door by relatives who have died at some earlier point in time). It seems different to use supernatural concepts if you're not trying to write something directly religious.

I drew a picture of a new character over the weekend. Only Aubrie and Lisa know about him right now, and I'm quite pleased with him. He's another doppelganger, an assassin named Daniel. (When looking for characters' names, I go to the name sites, go through the lists, and invariably, the right name will jump out at me.) Daniel is not a bad person; on the contrary, he was sent by the ruler of the race, Alger, to kill the wicked doppelganger council, who are trying to set up a New World Order of Doppelgangers. They believe that doppelgangers' sole purpose is for chaos and mayhem, and they have been killing the good, kind ones. This causes them to target Alexander, of course, and so Daniel moves in with Dartz and his family, wanting to protect Alexander and to kill the council members if/when they come. He also has a past with Alexander, which Alexander does not remember because of the council wiping his memories years ago. Alexander used to follow him around and consider him to be an elder brother, so it's hard for Daniel to now watch Alexander glomping Dartz and Alister and to know that Alexander has no remembrance of their times together.

I've been considering making a letter-writing journal, as several others here have done, and to address the letters to Alister. If I do that, though, it will probably be restricted to a few close friends. Letter-writing journals are invariably more personal than the regular kind, and I don't think I want strangers reading something like that. (I wouldn't want them commenting, at any rate.)