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LOLOLOL. There's an AMV on YouTube of Autor and Fakir and the song One Last Hope from Hercules. And it oddly fits. **snerks.** The timing is priceless, too.

I am shamelessly one of Autor's fangirls. The PT fandom loves the characters, and Autor has quite a devoted fanbase for being in so few episodes. (Then again, Femio is insanely popular and he's in one episode. LOL. But he's so hilarious and outrageous and outlandish, it's understandable.)

Autor is awesome. He's so snarky and acts like a jerk at the beginning, but he's actually a brave, kind person. Some people in the comm explained some things better than me, but I picked up on them too. ( Cut for mild spoilers )

... And why do I have to get these cracky ideas? **suddenly got an image of the Princess Tutu cast fighting against Dartz and the Orichalcos because she started playing the Orichalcos Theme.**

Current Mood: amused
Current Music: The Orichalcos Theme

Sometimes my computer still surprises me. I went to watch Star Wars Episode III with Mom and told it to be downloading McAfee updates in the meantime. I actually don't know whether it succeeded or whether the dumb update program errored, which has happened sometimes. But after the movie, the computer was still on, waiting for me. .___. Extremely surprising, since of late it's been crashing left and right if I leave for two minutes. I often feel like kicking the browser to kingdom come, but I love the computer itself and try not to get mad at it. X3 **hugs it.** It tries so hard.

Been doing more thinking on the fantasy fics. If this ice thing happens, I still need to think how Yami Bakura is captured. And I also finally decided on James' fate. He's captured by Yami Marik, after the devil makes it look like he's been killed. Yami Marik proceeds to torture him, showing him real scenes of Bakura having lost his mind, and making up lies that Yami Bakura abandoned him, when in reality Yami Bakura is trying to find and save him. ;___; But, to keep it from becoming too much like Taming the Darkness, Yami Marik eventually sets James free, wanting him to try to find Bakura and have a confrontation with Yami Bakura.

This is only learned in the second fic, I'm thinking. And when they meet, the Ice Queen is rising to power. Her minions are trying to capture all of them, and Yami Bakura sends Bakura and James away while he tries to hold them off. But there's too many, and he's taken prisoner and badly beaten and tortured. The next day, when the Ice Queen has him pushed off the platform and then encases him in ice, James is with his son and sees it happen. He's horrified and feels responsible, since Yami Bakura was captured while protecting them. And he tries to help Bakura figure out how to save him.

I'm pleased with myself that I managed to keep secret the plot of a weird blurbfic I did for

31_days's theme Memoirs of an Amnesiac. I wanted to tell the plot several times, but I had the willpower to not. It's a very odd fic, but I'm proud of how it came out. Originally it was supposed to be blurb, and hence, LJ-only, but I liked it so much that I put it on FF.net anyway.

I feel sad that Duke isn't a very popular character. ;__; I think a lot of it is because of how the anime ruined his intro. They made him look *awful.* Haha, the dub actually tried to salvage the mess and make it better. I heard that in the original, he's just upset because Yugi defeated Pegasus/Pegasus disappeared, and he can't get his game going. **headdesk.** My gosh, that's so whiny and immature! But the dub added the element that he thinks Yugi cheated and he wants to expose Yugi as a cheat, which gives him a more noble motive in addition to the other. I can't run the anime version in general completely down, since it gave us "David", and I like the scene at the very end where Duke is apologizing. But overall, the manga intro is so much better. I've ranted on that before, so I won't get into it again.

Instead, I'll muse on how different Duke is in general in the manga. I do need to get into the intro to tell a lot of his personality, however, so I'll try to make it different than what I've said before.

Because of Duke's reaction during the part where his father is hitting him for losing the game against Yugi at school, I don't think that was the first time it happened. ;__; Duke didn't really seem surprised. And his submissiveness is really heartbreaking.

His whole motivation during that arc is really intriguing and so sad. On the one hand, he really wanted the Millennium Puzzle's power. It was a legend he had been chasing all his life, he said. But on the other hand, he wanted to ease his father's pain and he thought that helping him get revenge would do that. He truly loves his father in spite of the abuse he's likely suffered all his life when he didn't do his best in his father's eyes.

He's also likely been indoctrinated by his father all his life. We know his father was telling him that he was the only one worthy of owning the Millennium Puzzle. It's probable that he was also repeatedly lectured against friendship, since his father is so bitter about what happened between himself and Solomon Muto. This may be the source of Duke's apparent derision of Yugi and Joey's friendship, and branch out to explain a lot of his cynicism and specifically his comments in Duelist #12, which indicate he may still think of himself as a lone wolf/that he doesn't need anyone else to give him courage/etc.

During the DDM game, he's angry when his father shatters the Millennium Puzzle and helps Yugi pick up the pieces. His father acknowledges that Duke is kind. Duke wants to play a fair game and tells his father not to interfere any more.

He doesn't hate Yugi; he tells his father when he loses the DDM game that he just couldn't hate Yugi. He also says he couldn't play the game well with the weight of his father's hate on him. When his father goes completely off the deep end and disowns Duke and tries to kill Yugi, Duke pleads with him and says not to show him any more of his ugly heart. When his father drags Yugi off and is going to play the Devil's Boardgame with him, Duke fights hard to rescue him.

The manga also features just about the only interaction of Duke and Bakura (and Yami Bakura, too!). It's not much interaction, but it's interesting. Duke indicates he's spoken to Bakura before, at school; he comments that Bakura doesn't often show his claws and he didn't know Bakura knew about the Millennium Items. (The fact that Duke knows about them is quite intriguing in and of itself.) And Bakura is trying to help Duke rescue Yugi.

At the end of the arc, there's no indication that Duke is a part of Yugi's gang, and indeed, his appearance in Battle City seems to affirm it. The manga version, unfortunately, has no counterpart to the anime scene where Duke apologizes to Yugi and is basically accepted as a friend of his and the others.

Also, even though he does the parlor tricks to make the girls squee, he does not seem to be a Casanova at all. (And of course, that idiocy with the cheerleaders does not exist.) He doesn't even seem to be romantically interested in Serenity. He says he's along because he owes Yugi-tachi a favor, and later on, is thinking that he also came to find out whether you can really get courage from another person. And that element, unfortunately, I don't think Takahashi-sama ever went back to; we never learn what Duke's conclusion is, that I remember. When I think of it, the only time he shows attraction to anyone is I think when they're in Mai's car and he looks rather smitten by her. He's thinking "She's hot!" But he looked more like an innocent boy, interestingly. Just from his expression in that panel, I could honestly picture him being taken in by some crafty femme fatale. XD;

In both the anime and the manga, he's the cynic of Yugi's friends and acquaintances. He's much more that way in the manga, I think, but with his reduced role it's sometimes hard to get a clear picture of him. After his wonderful intro, the manga-ka seemed to kind of forget about him. He pops up here and there in Battle City, but very sporadically and with little dialogue. Overall, however, I can tell he seems very detached from Yugi and the others. I honestly do not think he's really a part of the gang in the manga, nor that he considers himself as such. Unless they became somewhat closer during and after Battle City; he's along during the Ceremonial Battle. Unlike in the anime, he seems to have actually been invited.

My version draws mainly from the manga, but keeps some anime elements. Of course, the events of the anime have happened in my fics, minus the intro. The anime intro is no longer canon to me; the only elements of it kept for my fics are "David" and the apology scene. Oh, and the fact that Duke himself owns the store, not his father. My version of the intro's events don't have the store burn like in the manga.

I'm sure not quite sure how to reconcile my version of things with the part in the anime where Yugi duels Bandit Keith in the warehouse. The warehouse thing drew elements from the manga version of Duke's intro, minus having Duke and his father present. And I actually did like those warehouse episodes, especially Yami Bakura's role. Him freeing Bandit Keith from mind-control was awesome. And I love where he, as Bakura, knocks Keith off the platform, and then where he's clumsy and actually falls off, LOL. Not something I expected Yami Bakura would do. And it seems to really be him all through those episodes, just pretending to be Bakura. But I also like in the manga where Yami Bakura came and Yugi knew it was Yami Bakura and Yami Bakura was trying to encourage Yugi to win DDM against Duke. So I dunno how to reconcile all those elements. For now, I haven't even tried to address them in my fics. XD; I've only described the main parts of my manga-inspired intro for the anime, with Duke's father and no dog costume/national TV humiliation crap, etc.

My version of Duke does flirt with women left and right, but he uses it as one of his many shields. He's also very cynical, tends to keep people at arm's length, and is quite detached from Yugi-tachi. He is also truly in love with Serenity, and more and more, I think he's a better match for her than Tristan. XD; Every time I think I'm leaning towards Tristan/Serenity again, the whole sheltering issue comes up and bugs me. Duke needs some moderation in his bluntness, and he needs to mature (in the anime; in the manga he already seems pretty mature), but overall I keep preferring to put him with Serenity.

And some brief musings on Bakura. In my Alone Again AU, I briefly mention him as a computer programmer. But since he's shown at least in the manga to have skills with making things (RPG figures and the Egyptian diorama), I decided maybe he goes into wood-carving in the main timeline. X3

Also, can you reconcile how he loves grotesque cards/things in the manga with him running around screaming in the anime because a skeleton is on his back? LOL. I dunno, I keep trying to figure out how to merge those elements of his personality and it keeps not working. If he loves grotesque things, I can't imagine why he freaks so bad about the skeleton. I wish I knew if the skeleton incident happened in the manga. That's one volume I don't have yet.

Current Mood: tired
Current Music: Starfire---Dragonforce

I've often pondered on how, even though they're the same person, even though I write Yami Bakura being able to change between his forms due to the Infinity Ring, I still get a different perception of the character depending on whether he looks like the one we usually think of when we say "Yami Bakura" or like the Thief King.

Yami Bakura I usually think of as being closer to Bakura in age (quite naturally, since he's in Bakura's form and looks strikingly similar) and more reckless. Unless we're talking anime Duelist Kingdom Yami Bakura. Has anyone noticed how much different he is there compared to the later arcs? He seems much more serious, sneaky, older, and not reckless. But starting from Battle City on, he seems to take on a different, more wild persona. He even looks younger than he did in Duelist Kingdom. My guess as to the explanation is that his actions during Duelist Kingdom in the anime were invented by the anime writers and as such, that is their perception of the character. From Battle City on (until we get to where the anime really screwed his character up in Pharaoh's Memories), he's mostly closer to how Kazuki Takahashi actually wrote him. I actually really like him during the anime Duelist Kingdom. X3 Not that I don't like him later, but there's something about his more serious Duelist Kingdom self that really appeals to me.

However, his Battle City self is probably closer to Thief King in personality. SO. RECKLESS. And more unhinged. XD; And he really acts like the Thief King when he messes something up. XD;

In my Pendulum Swings verse, Yami Bakura in either form is serious, grouchy, and world-weary, but he's still masochistic and enjoys (even delights in) defeating his enemies. One time when I was going around LJ randomly, I found a Bakura RP journal wherein he talked about Yami Bakura after Yami Bakura received his physical, Thief King form again in their RP. He described his friend very interestingly, and though I can't recall all that he said, what stood out the most to me is where he said that Yami Bakura still had that bloodlust but it wasn't as prominent. And he was more wise and weary. He reminded Bakura, overall, of an old lion. I really liked that description. X3

Anyway ... that's kind of how I think of my version, too. And when he's in Thief King form, I automatically think of him as older and wiser. But even though, especially in my verse, they're exactly the same person and behave exactly the same, I *still* immediately think of him as younger and reckless when I picture Yami Bakura in the form from when Bakura held the Millennium Ring.

I think both he and I needed to revisit him being in the later form to see what we'd think of it after his release from Zorc's absorption. Hence why I wrote him as mostly in the Millennium Ring-era form during White is in the Winter Night. But then we seemed to decide that yes, Thief King form was the right way to go. I'm guessing he probably won't be changing back to the Millennium Ring-era form in any other stories.

... Unless I do something cracky and have it happen when he's extremely shocked/startled about something. XD; Which was how he originally found out he had that power; he woke up from a nightmare having subconsciously changed his appearance as he fell out of bed. And scared poor Bakura's father half out of his mind. LOL.

Current Mood: contemplative
Current Music: Hall Om Mig---Nanne Gronwall

Now this song is a blast from the past. When the computer was still on Windows 98, I had to give up most of the songs I had because it ran too slow with them. But I've hung on to this one all through the years. I'm not entirely sure what the attraction is, since I never really even got into Yu Yu Hakusho despite liking Kurama. Could be the awesome beat. But a lot of the songs I had were awesome that way, and I was forced to let them go. Why keep this one?

All I can figure out is the intense nostalgia it brings, moreso than any of the others. When I play it, there's a feeling there, something I long to recapture, but it's always just out of my reach. And I know that no matter how I try, I'll probably never again have that feeling in the here and now. It's bittersweet, but it also makes me happy thinking of times long past. I was a wide-eyed 15-year-old, enamored by my discovery of anime and YGO, and engaged in my first sweeping YGO RP. The song reminded my RP partner of something in connection with her character, which could also be part of the attraction, because I loved that character and those RPs. I still have the logs.

It's amusing---I've thought off and on about how much I've changed in just the last three-four years. I could *not* grasp what someone was telling me about how she believed Mr. Muggs of the East Side Kids would act if this kid who always imitated him got hurt sometime following him on some dangerous thing. I was trying to write a story on the idea and have him feel guilty over the kid being hurt. This person was trying to get me to see that he probably would not; he would probably be angry and frustrated that this kid, who had never been through what he had been through, was coming along trying to be a poser and act like him. I could not understand it; I even wondered if Muggs would be so mad he wouldn't help the kid. But I realized a while back that I perfectly understand now what that person was trying to explain. Yeah, Muggs probably would have felt exactly as that person said he would, and of course, he would have helped the kid in spite of it. But he would not have blamed himself. I could probably write that story now if I wanted. But I realized years ago that while I enjoy the films, writing for the characters is not my forte. I can do it, but it's a lifestyle and a time period quite alien to me. Of course, I'd probably update the time period to modern day, like I always do if it doesn't really damage the plot/background of the story I'm trying to write. But I'd rather just leave it be.

I think it was probably the fandoms I went through right after that which improved my writing the most. I dabbled with writing for assassins and romance in Detective Conan, and while there's still at least one sole oneshot I'm determined to write someday (inspired by a song, I think by Poets of the Fall), I also don't want to go back to writing for those characters frequently.

Final Fantasy and KH brought me Sephiroths, also someone very different from previous characters I'd written for. KH Sephiroth in particular, was an anti-hero through and through the way I wrote for him. I think I really improved a lot on writing for anti-heroes in general because of him.

Now I'm back to YGO, and I think my efforts now are far better than most of my previous ones (though I still love my later YGO works, like Life After the Tears and the few Siegfried fics I did). I love what I've done with Duke in all three of my new timelines (the updated main one, the Fallen one, and the Alone Again one). I love that I finally have given a name and a fleshed-out personality to his unnamed manager, a character that intrigued me from my first viewing of episode 46 (and whom I think I mentioned in the old fic In Memory ... one I still need to fix the formatting of on FF.net...). And I love my updated version of Yami Bakura. I also think I write for Yami Marik far better than I used to, and of course Atem and P. Seto.... The manga has helped a lot with that, as well as rewatching lots of anime episodes.

My one regret is that I'm really struggling with details. -.- Also starting with Detective Conan (and a bit with my Baby Face fics), I've tried to infer things more instead of spelling them out. It makes things more powerful. Downside is, I think a lot of times I need more details in something and I can't get them to come out. I feel so rusty. I don't know if I could ever write something again as detail-ridden as part 1 of Until You Find the Answers, one of the semi-recent YGO ventures. And yet sometimes I'm still able to churn out a scene with quite a few details, like the final scene of part 8 of Taming the Darkness, but it still doesn't feel like enough. I keep thinking there should be more. I'm driving myself mad because of this frustration over wanting more details and not being able to get any more to come out. I can't tell whether the scenes really don't need anything more and I'm just being picky, or if they do need more and I'm not giving it to them.

On a totally different subject ... I was in a store today, looking over the Valentine's Day stuff. I actually have always loved the holiday and feel a thrill of excitement for its arrival, but I roll my eyes at the emphasis on romance and being with a lover that day. I always loved it because when I was little, I'd get something awesome for it. X3 Like one year I got a 101 Dalmatians plush. That was probably my favorite Valentine's Day ever. (Well, actually, probably tied with the year we went to the mall and I found a Berlioz plushie at the Disney Store. My favorite Valentine's pretty much always involve plushies, except one year when I went on errands with Dad, went to a youth group activity delivering valentines to people, and then came home to a cat book. X3 Totally awesome day.) The thrill of the day has stuck with me all through the years, even though lately there hasn't been much exciting going on for it. This year, though, I'm pretty much squeeing for it to come. From my calculations, if the girls are able to be on schedule after the Christmas rush and are ready to ship in eight weeks (and they've always been on time in the past), I should get my plush sometime around the first couple of weeks of February. It could end up being right before or right after Valentine's Day. (And amusingly, this year it's on a Sunday, the same way it was the year I got my dalmatian.) So I say, bring it on! Come, you wonderful holiday that people ruin with their over-emphasis on romance. XD; People think that Valentine's Day can't be fun without a significant other, but it can be totally awesome without having anything to do with that!

To be honest, I get far more excited for Valentine's Day than I do for New Year's. XD;

Current Mood: nostalgic
Current Music: Wild Wind---Yu Yu Hakusho

Hmmm. You know what? I think the flying numbers in the Japanese version of the duel against Panik, counting down his remaining turns, are silly, ridiculous, and melo/overdramatic. I'm glad the dub removed them. XD;

I also think I don't like that no one knew why Bakura was missing in the manga until the final volume of Battle City. I mean, gosh, all that missing opportunity to be horrified and angst over him. ;__; And it seems kind of anti-climatic to have them learn only then, since not long after, Yami Marik is defeated and Bakura is restored.

My biggest problem, though, is that in the manga, everyone seemed to forget Bakura was even missing! There was a moment or two where they wondered, but unless I missed something, they don't even conduct a search for him! And he's supposed to be closer to Yugi-tachi in the manga than in the anime, too! He's invited with them to Duelist Kingdom, for instance, and he's present during the early Battle City duels. And yet they still forgot he was missing?! Yami Y certainly acted like he had forgotten when Yami Marik showed the Millennium Ring.

I totally prefer in the anime, where Yugi and Téa look everywhere for him and then go up to the roof while the Shadow Game is on. The scene where Yami Y confronts Yami Marik after Yami Bakura's defeat was very intense and poignant.

But then of course, also in the anime, where Bakura isn't as close to them, Yugi didn't even include him when he mused over all the friends he'd made throughout the series! It showed pictures of everyone, and even Duke was there, but Bakura was left out. That was in episode 199. And since there were pictures, I'm pretty sure it wasn't a dub mistake.

Of course, since the anime Pharaoh's Memories is pretty screwed up anyway, you could probably take that with a grain of salt. XD; But in both anime and manga, Bakura seems to be presented as actually being quite alone even after meeting Yugi-tachi, from these examples and from others, especially in the anime.

Current Mood: fired up
Current Music: Duke Devlin's Theme

http://www.side7.com/lucky_ladybug66/gallery/ Four pictures up; two completely new, two inked and tweaked versions of previously posted ones.

I watched some of the anime Pharaoh's Memories on Saturday. I realized how much I seriously dislike their handling of almost everything. I hadn't remembered how badly they altered the palace intrusion scene, for instance. Basically, the manga version was much longer (a rarity for the manga version of anything), deeper, and made Thief King look more sympathetic. The altering was for the anime in general, so the dub can't really be blamed.

I *love* this dub line of his, though: "Well, excuse me for not respecting a kingdom that destroyed my village!" or something to that effect. He might have said "family" instead of "village." ;___;

What I also love about the anime version can basically be summed up here:

- Seto! I mean, seriously, he was so important throughout the whole manga, and yet he's not in the final arc and never even sees Atem go on to the afterlife?! That is not cool. Their rivalry was so important in the series. The anime made a good decision by bringing him in.

- Shadi! He's one of my favorite lesser-seen characters, so to have him interact with Yugi-tachi at the beginning was awesome. And I suppose it's dub-only, but his and Joey's clashes are hilarious. XD; As is Joey's reaction to his hand going through him.

- Chained Thief King. XD; I mean, it is one of the only times we get a good h/c scene with him. I wanna know what happened that led to him being captured and being forced to walk through the desert until he was so exhausted (and probably suffering from the heat) that he collapsed. ;__;

- The scene where Yugi-tachi see Yami Bakura in a room, and then suddenly a beast explodes out of his body. o.o The reason why I like that? Check out his expression. He's in pain. He acts horrified. He doesn't want it to happen. If Yami Bakura is only Zorc in the anime version, why such a reaction? Looks to me like a subtle indication that Thief King is around.

- Ishtars coming in earlier! More Ishtar scenes = much love.

- Yugi-tachi encountering Thief King. Joey calls him Scarface. **snerk.** I kind of sighed at Tristan being mind-controlled/possessed again, though. XD; ~~I always wanted it to happen to Duke sometime. Of course, Duke wasn't with them there, but I digress.~~

I do like other things, such as more Mana scenes, and the redoing of the battle where Thief King is killed. o.o (Heck, give me any level of h/c scene with him and I'll probably love it. XD; Except turning to sand. That was creepy. It's only redeeming grace is that it didn't really happen.) But I prefer the manga version of the latter, where he's laying dead on the horse and his future self is yelling at him. XD; "No! You're not supposed to die yet! That isn't how it went!"

And now, for LOL-worthy dialogue:

Yami Bakura: Are you frightened yet?
Seto Kaiba: If you think a rotting corpse with a sword is going to intimidate me, you're sadly mistaken!

Yami Bakura: I was successful in returning to the past! ... But judging from these chains, my timing could have been better.

Mahado: We are in the presence of pure evil!
Ahkenaden: Oh no!

Seriously, "oh no"?! What kind of reaction is that to such a statement?! LOLOLOL.

I love the dub's humor, intentional and unintentional.

EDIT: I also watched some Battle City/Ship stuff, including Yami Bakura vs. Yami Marik. I confirmed that the anime does show fading, definitely making it less sickening-looking than the manga version. (The dub kept the creepy teeth monsters, BTW. XD;) Also of interest: in the manga, Yami Bakura's reaction to the devouring is, "Oh don't get me wrong! I like it!" **headdesk.** LOL. But in the anime, he looks furious. In the dub he says, "You fiend!" Dunno what he says in the original, but he clearly does not like it.

Current Mood: happy

1. What's your first name? Faye (no, I shall not post my true identity for all of cyberspace to see! XD )
2. What's your middle name? Hmmm. Okiday, I'll give you that much. Belle. Yep, for real.
3. What's you last name? Valentine (fake name again!)
4. What is your age and birthday? 10/03/86
5. What are your nicknames? Chris, Daisy, Faye, Oldies, LuckyLadybug, Buggy-chan
6. What is your zodiac sign? Libra
7. Where do you live? On Earth. XD
8. Do you have a girlfriend/boyfriend? Nope. Not interested.
9. What is your gender? Female
10. Have you ever been in love? I don't think so
11. What's your favorite color? Blue, black, white, pink, purple
12. Do you have any piercings or want any? No
13. If so where and what. Not planning on any
14. Do you have or want a tattoo? Not really. They're stuck on you for life. What if after a year or so you get tired of it? You can't magically make it go away.
15. Where do you shop at the most? Borders, Media Play, Toys R Us, Wal-Mart, eBay
16. What's you favorite store to shop in? All of the above
17. What color is your hair? Dark brown with natural red streaks
18. What color are your eyes? Blue
19. Do you smoke? No
20. Do you do drugs? No.
21. What type of music do you listen to? Anime music, gothic rock, religious (yeah, some combination, eh?)
22. Who are your best friends? JP, Aubrie, SK, Lizzie, Lisa, Stacey, Elora, Birdee
23. Who are your best friends online? ^ They are
24. If your a girl, what kind of make-up do you wear? Dark red lipstick. It looks good matched with my dark hair and clothes
26. Is your hair long or short? I cut it, so it's short. It was bugging me when it was long. I kept finding myself laying on it when I was trying to roll over. ><;
27. Do you like to shop? For anime stuff, yes. X3
28. What sports do you play? None. Not interested. Though, can walking around Wal-Mart for ages because once AGAIN I lost my dad somewhere among the aisles be considered a sport? I get a lot of exercise doing that, I swear. XD; (Seriously, sometimes I can't find him for thirty minutes or more!)
29. What are you most afraid of? Drowning, being alone
30. What is your favorite animal? Cats, fish. I like dogs, but not as much.
31. What do you do for fun? Read/watch anime, write stuff, sing, draw, role-play, and of course shop for anime.
32. How many phones do you have in your house? Three, on two lines
33. How many tv's do you have in your house? One working, two not working.
34. What's your favorite food? Pizza, casseroles, tuna sandwiches with mayo and pickles
36. Do you think you're attractive? Sometimes, and most especially if I've had a good hair day. XD;
37. Who are the most attractive people you know? **shrugs.** I haven't met many real-life handsome people. Do anime characters count? XD
38. Are you a virgin? Of course!
39. Do you sleep on your stomach, back, or side? Side, mostly. I hate sleeping on my back.
40. Do you sleep with stuffed animals? Yep. I love plushies. >3 And my old quilt.
41. Do you sleep with the lights on or off? Off, and with a bandanna over my eyes
42. What's your favorite t.v. show? YuGiOh. Seriously, I don't care for what's on live-action TV much. I prefer anime, and an occasional American-made show. Tokyo Mew Mew, Sailor Moon, Gundam W, Cowboy Bebop, Rurouni Kenshin, Megaman.EXE, Sonic X (mainly for Knuckles; the show's too much like Pokémon sometimes), TMNT (ALL HAIL THE TURTLES! I swear, that's about the only American animated show I like right now), One Piece (before it started playing opposite YGO).
43. What's your favorite movie? All Star Wars movies, the LOTR trilogy, Indiana Jones movies, Casablanca, Smiling Through (I know the title's corny, but it's a lovely old movie)
44. What perfume/cologne do you wear? Any kind I feel like. No preferences.
45. Do you have your own phone line? No
46. What's your phone number? ... Do you think I am stupid in the head?! **quoting the ever-great Don Karnage!**
47. What brand of shoes do you wear? No preference, but I like sandals. That's about the only kind of shoe I can actually fit my weird feet into.
48. What kind of clothes do you sleep in? Pajama bottoms with a nightgown. I don't like wearing pajama tops, nor do I like only wearing a nightgown.
49. What's your favorite soda? 7Up, Sprite, Root Beer
50. What things do you say a lot? LOL. XD X3 >3 Yes, I love my typey smilies.
51. Are you a serious, loud, happy, or shy person? I'm more serious than some people I know. XD; I'm rarely hyper, but on occassion I can be, especially when I'm with Stacey and Elora.
52. What kind of car do you want/have? We have a red Chevy named Kenshin. **pats him.** XD
54. Do you think you're weird or funny? Neither, really. I prefer unique and original.
55. Who is the ugliest person you know? **shrugs.**
56. Are you popular? In certain little online circles, yes. IRL, I doubt it.
57. Do you watch pornos? Noooo.
58. What was your most embarassing moment? Too many to think of just one.
59. If you could have 3 wishes, what would they be? That I would improve my writing all the more (including by figuring out how to write original fiction), get my math done and out of the way, and that there would be a plethora of Doom merchandise released. XD
60. Where do you want to get married? I dunno. . . . In one of my religion's temples somewhere, probably the one closest to where I live.
61. Who do you want to marry? No one yet. XD
62. What are your favorite girl names? Hmm. Anzu, Shizuka, Serenity, Sakura. . . . I prefer guy names. XD;
63. What are your favorite boy names? Alister, Raphael, Valon, Marik/Malik, Joseph (when I get married and have a son, he WILL be named Joseph!).
64. If you could change on thing about yourself, what would it be? That I'm too impatient.
65. Have you ever tried to kill yourself? Nope.
66. Have you ever stolen anything? . . . And we define stealing as . . . ? Well, let's just say No, I haven't stolen anything big, but when I was little . . . you know how kids are.
67. Do you enjoy filling this stuff out? Usually.
68. What's your favorite fast food place? I don't really have one. XD;
69. Do you have any brothers? Yeah
70. Who do you really hate? The International Idiots who make International Idiots Come Out Of The Woodwork Year possible. XD; Actually I just strongly dislike them. I wouldn't say I "hate" anyone.
71. Do you have a pool? Nope
72. Do you have a spa? My brother does. X3
73. Are you stupid? I don't really think so, but I can be absentminded sometimes. --.--;;;
74. What's the first thing you notice about the opposite sex? Overall cuteness, both in looks and personality. If I like their personalities, I'll probably like them and think they're cute. XD
75. What are you addicted to? Anime, role-playing, writing.
76. Do you joke a lot? Not really, but sometimes, when I get with certain people, then yes.
77. Who do you wish you were? I am what I want to be, pretty much: a writer and a singer. Now I just need to become internationally known for both. X3
78. Who has it easier, boys or girls? From my perspective, probably guys
79. Would you rather be tall or short? Taller than I am.
80. Do you like to dance? If I'm in the right mood.
81. Do you party a lot? Hmmm. No. And if we define "party" as an all-out drinking bash, then never. XD
82. Are you online a lot? Sure thing. I wanna talk to my friends, after all.
83. Do you like playing pranks on people? Not really.
84. Do you have a big nose or anything? Nope.
85. What's the craziest thing you've done? . . . Dunno.
86. What's your favorite subject in school? History, Psychology
87. Who is the funniest person you know? It varies on the day. But LadyAmberJo can usually make me laugh with some of her musings on my artwork. XD Stacey and Elora are also way up there.
88. How many people are on your buddy list? **checks.** For MSN, 32 people under Friends and 11 under Coworkers. **whispers.** The Coworkers are mostly either repeat names of people on my Friends list and people whom I don't really consider friends much. XD; I can't remember how many are on YIM, but a good many of those are repeats, too. I think there's only about 5 or 6 different people listed there, and some of them are also on MSN.
89. Are you sick of all of those damn pornos in you e-mail box? I don't seem to get them with my new address. That's why I stopped using the old one, though. It wound up that there would sometimes be 70+ spam emails! >.>;;;;
90. What college do you want to go to? Dunno. . . . Probably U of U.
91. What school do you go to? American School. It's correspondence.
92. Do you sleep a lot? It depends. XD; I'm just getting over insomnia right now.
93. Are you a night or day person? I've been a nightowl for years.
94. Why do guys blame everything women do on PMS? XD I like Aubrie's answer, which is: "LOL, because they have too hard of a time telling when we do and don't have it. XD"
95. Can you define love? There's so many different kinds of love. Which kind do you want me to define?
96. Do you shave? Yes.
98. Do you get along with your parents? Yeah. ^^
99. Do you have any sisters? Yeah.
100. How many bedrooms does your house have? **thinks.** ..... 5, but only a couple actually get used for bedrooms. **laughs.** Two are storage rooms now, and one is the computer room!
101. What do you want to be when you're out of college? Writer and singer.
102. Do you curse a lot? I have a problem with saying Damn and Hell in my head, but that's about it.
103. Is East-side or West-side better? Eh? Do you mean East Coast and West Coast, or Eastern and Western cultures, or what, exactly?
104. Do you have an online crush? I only have anime crushes. XD; And I am highly aware that they aren't real people.
105. Are you ticklish? That could be used against me!
106. What's your favorite flower? Lilacs, roses, daisies, irises, those odd blue flowers we get in our yard every Spring.
107. What does your room look like? Plushies and other collectibles are everywhere! And there's a few posters. I have a YGO one with Seto, Yami Y, and Joey and some of their monsters, Beatles '65, LOTR: Fellowship of the Ring, and Jar Jar Binks. I want the Doom Arc poster!
108. What would you consider yourself, a prep, gang banger, wanna be, freak ect? Non-conformist. To Heck with what everyone else is doing! Just because they're doing it, I don't have to.
109. How many kids do you want to have? Dunno. As many as I'm allotted to have.
110. Do you believe in god? Yes!
111. What's your religion? The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints
112. Have you ever cybered? .... I ..... don't wanna know what that is, do I? (Though I have a suspicion, and if I'm right, then Heck no!)
113. Do you believe there is one person for another? ... You mean like soul mates/kindred spirits? Yes, but it's overrated and people make lots of mistakes trying to find that person.
114. Do you believe in love at first sight? No. ><; I do believe in LUST at first sight, though. XD;
115. What color toothbrush do you use? Mint green
116. How many times do you brush your teeth a day? Less than I should, but I do get it done. ^^;
117. Who is your favorite cartoon character? . . . The TMNT and Splinter. And Casey Jones. For anime, there's almost too many to name (though, I really find it an injustice that some people refer to anime as "cartoons." Anime is so much more than that!) XD; Anime: The Doom bikers, the Ishtars, the Kaiba Brothers, the Outer Sailor Senshi, Mint, Pudding. And that's just for starters!
118. Do you have a job? No
119. What turns you on? ...... O__o; You know, some people actually don't have dirty minds, believe it or not. XD;
120. What's your favorite vegetable? ... Spinach. Yes, for real. XD Though, I only like it COOKED!
121. What's your favorite fruit? Strawberries and raspberries (yes, Aubrie and I have the same tastes in fruit!)
122. What's your favorite candy? Snickers, Butterfingers, Twix, M&M's, Reese's Peanut Butter Cups, Hershey's Treasures . . . Hershey's in general. XD CHOCOLATE!
123. What was the best day of your life? .... **shrugs.** I hate questions like that. XD;
124. Are you a b*****/a*******? ..... Not unless you make me really, REALLY angry, and even then, I may or may not explode directly in your face. XD; I'm pretty passive, usually.
125. Were you mamma's little angel? Probably. XD;
126. Do you wear body spray? Occassionally after a shower.
127. Do you get along with your grandparents? When they were all alive, yes. I do have one grandma still living, and I get along with her. ^^
128. Who's the sweetest girl? I don't like these questions either. XD;
129. Who's the sweetest guy? JP. ^^
130. Are you wearing nail polish now? Yes.
131. If so, what color? Black. I need to repaint, though.
132. How many rings and necklaces do you own? A lot. Most of the necklaces' clasps are broken. ><
133. Do you wear braces or a retainer? No
134. What's your favorite toothpaste/mouthwash? No preference.
135. Do you floss? I should. XD;
136. Are you tired? Right now, I'm okay.
137. Do you have any scars? Yeah, one on my left hand between my thumb and my forefinger, where I accidentally stabbed myself nine years ago. o.o;
138. Have your ever cried over someone of the opposite sex? Probably
139. Do you like lollipops? Tootsie Pops!
140. What are you thinking about right now? How I wonder if I have any reviews yet on my new chapter.
141. Without looking, what color of underwear are you wearing? .... You're not getting an answer, pervert!
142. Are you into exotic sex stuff? .... WTH?! No. >.>;
143. Who makes you laugh? LadyAmberjo, Stacey, Elora, Lisa
144. Who's your favorite teacher? I have correspondence school, remember?
145. Do you have your license? **sighs longingly.** I wish.
146. How many pillows do you sleep with? Two
147. What't your G.P.A.? Dunno. That's a school thing, right? I don't think my correspondence school has done those.
148. What's the worst nightmare you've ever had? ... The "WORST"? I dunno. Something involving drowning, maybe.
149. what's the deepest secret you could tell? ... My life isn't an open book. Nosy, aren't we?
150. Have you ever commited a crime you were charged with? No. XD
151. Do you........ uh yahoo? ...... And this means....?
152. Are you tired of filling this out yet? **shrugs.**
153: Why did Hitler want to fall in love? ..... Because he just felt like it. XD

Current Mood: calm

I've been thinking about this for a while, ever since someone made a comment about fantasy writers being realists. I agree with the statement. I know that I, for one, am a realist. I know that the world is often cruel and cold and that things often don't go the way you want. People die, friends drift apart, etc etc. That's exactly why I write the way I do, because I'd prefer to create a little place where things actually do go right in the end, since it rarely happens in real life. XD; And you know, it's strange. I was musing to myself about what things would depress me the most and I think the answer is friends going their separate ways. I'm not sure even death would depress me as much as that, if the death was portrayed in a noble, beautiful way. (Though, technically, if someone dies, they're certainly going a separate way from their family and friends. XD; Character death definitely does depress me, but I'm wondering if friends all staying alive but going different ways depresses me more.) That's why I'm so anti-romance, I think, because if girls came in and interfered with the bikers and they all wound up with girlfriends, then they'd probably all get married and move away to various locations. They wouldn't see as much of each other, nor would they have much time for each other anymore. That's how it generally goes in real life, even if the people don't intend for it to happen. Sure, they'd still feel as close to each other, but they wouldn't be all that each other would have anymore. And I'm just in love with the idea of the three of them being a surrogate family. XD; In my little universe, I don't intend for anything to separate them, including death, for that matter. **smile.** It's my little escape from the real world and I'm entitled to that, just as romance lovers are entitled to what they want. **shrug.** I don't have to agree with them, nor they with me.

I had to go fix a glitch with my library card on Tuesday. I found that I couldn't place holds online and it was annoying. A librarian tried to fix it over the phone, but it didn't take, so we had to go in. It turned out that they had actually forgotten to replace the old card's barcode with the new one's. O__o;; **shakes head.** It's fixed now, though.

Afterward Dad let me investigate the new Star Wars stuff at Toys R Us. Then I bought Enya's A Day Without Rain album at ShopKo in hopes for inspiration on Candy Clouds, as Enya seems to bring about much inspiration for that. XD; We also went to Dollar Tree (where I bought new headphones, as the others conked out without warning on Saturday and I had to borrow Dad's, and sunglasses, as the sun was bothering me) and Wal-Mart (where I bought some more black nailpolish, as I'd run out, and the paperback version of the Star Wars Episode 1 adaption. Yes, I like the prequels). I still want to go to Borders, but we weren't really near it on Tuesday and it was getting late, so I wanted to get home.

Did I mention that our TV is so awesome? It has a headphone jack. >3 So I always watch TV with headphones. It's my own private little world. I can watch stuff in peace without waking people up. **smile.**

And I must mention this: I'm so proud. XD; I've been getting my durned math problems done correctly without having to ask for help as much. I completed the rest of the section myself and now I'm working on the exam. ^^ Then I'll only have two more books to wade through. ^^; Of math, that is.

Some idiot actually posted a poll at Janime's on whether Alister is a guy or a girl. O__o;;; After all this time, you'd think it'd be obvious! There's three pages (last I checked) of people trying to set the person straight. LOL.

And the other night I was watching a tape of Yami Y's duel with Noa, and I dunno why it happened right then, but I got remembering my pic of Alister as the Cyber Commander and I wanted to draw the other bikers as Duel Monsters characters. I knew right away that I wanted Shine Angel for Raphael (though I didn't know the name of the card at first), and later on I decided to add Dartz and have him be Witty Phantom (hey, they both wear purple suits. LOL), but I couldn't figure out what I wanted for Valon. I knew I wanted a Warrior card, and one that would allow his hair to show, but I couldn't think of anything. Someone at Janime's suggested Marauding Captain and I decided to try it. ^^ Currently that picture is half-finished. XD; I did the Raphie pic, though. I love how it came out. And I have a plot bunny to go with the pics, something involving someone sending them into a Shadow Game where they're those card characters.

I also have a plot bunny involving a couple coming and claiming to be Valon's parents. o.o That should be interesting. I dunno whether I want them to be a couple of con artists and not related to him, or for them to be a couple of con artists and to be related to him, though. XD; I figure Valon's real parents were probably jerks, if they're alive. I made up a thing where they purposely abandoned him when he was little. So saaad!

I finally did chapter 6 of the mystery fic yesterday morning. I still haven't figured out what should happen to Runi, though. And now I should work on chapter four of Candy Clouds. ^^;

Current Mood: thoughtful
Current Music: Creek Mary's Blood by Nightwish

I keep meaning to post on this, but I keep not getting around to it. XD; Several weeks ago I had a conversation with Aubrie in which I mentioned how much I dislike any story about Original Characters that I come up with. The only explanation I could really give for why I disliked those fics was that I felt like I was the victim of whatever troubles befell the OC's, since I created them. o.o; It's amusing, though. . . . I really do try to put myself in the canon characters' shoes when I'm role-playing them and try to determine what they're thinking and feeling. Otherwise, the RPs wouldn't be much fun. XD; But I don't feel like what's happening to them is happening to me. It's hard to explain. And even with a select few OC's, it's not like I feel like that. I never feel like I'm being hurt if I get Runihura or Khu into trouble. But oh how I despise my original fictions. XD; Maybe I should try writing an original fiction on an OC I do like and feel comfortably "detached" from, like Runihura, and try to go from there. . . .

There was a really intriguing episode of TMNT last Saturday. The show's just been getting better and better. Right now each Turtle has been sent to a different dimension/alternate universe/other world and they're following each one's adventures in the episodes. Last Saturday they showed Donatello's experience. He wound up in an alternate universe where 30 years had passed after he had gone missing and the Shredder now ruled supreme. o.o Don met up with Mikey, who had lost part of his left arm and was no longer cheerful and somewhat immature, as he always has been on the shows. He had seen so much and had been so disillusioned by the events after Don's disappearance that he had finally been forced to grow up. He tells Don that Splinter is dead and that then Leo and Raph had a big falling out.

Don is determined for them to defeat the Shredder for good and restore the peace, so Mikey takes him to the underground resistance movement, led by April. She tells them that Casey died in a previous attempt to stop the Shredder. And Hun and Dr. Stockman are with the resistance movement. April says they rescued the two of them (or what's left of them, rather) from being executed and that's how they'd wound up there.

So anyway, April manages to get Leo and Raph contacted and they come. They're not happy to see each other and get into a big argument over what happened to Splinter. Leo believes they couldn't have saved him, while Raph believes otherwise. Then Don breaks up their fight and tells them what's going on. They're shocked to see him after all this time, but agree to be part of the final attack on Shredder.

So they all wind up at Shredder's new hideout and find that he's much more powerful. o.o He kills Hun and Stockman when Hun comes begging to be taken back again (dang, why he would keep wanting to be around that guy is beyond me, especially since Shredder had tried to kill him multiple times in the past. Maybe it's because, somehow, he felt useful when he was working for Shredder). Then Mikey also dies. o.o Leo winds up fighting Karai and tells her that she must make a final choice between fighting for what she truly believes or continuing with the Shredder, whom she considers as her father and can't bring herself to leave. I was expecting this to happen, but she chooses the Shredder and winds up killing Leo. ;__; Then Raph is all sad and comes running over to him and he winds up dying too, after being furious and charging at Karai, I think. He collapses over Leo's body. Then April kills Karai and Don manages to defeat the Shredder. She thanks him and there's a bittersweet ending as he fades out, presumeably being pulled back to his own dimension. April is left standing amid all the carnage.

I dunno why I actually liked the episode. XD; Maybe it was because instead of being something where Don actually went into his future, he went into an alternate universe. If Don had really been in his own future, it would have been extremely depressing and I probably wouldn't have liked it. But Don couldn't have been in his own future, simply because all the other Turtles (and Splinter, too, I think) each were sent away into other dimensions and they all have to get home, not just Don. Anyway, I really did like the episode in some bittersweet way. The part where Leo and then Raph die is so sad, but it shows what a strong bond they really did have, inspite of how they often argue.

I have a couple of picture ideas. Mom wants to see a movie, so maybe I can draw while that goes on. **cuddles Alister.**

As a parting note, thank goodness for bananas. XD;

Current Mood: excited
Current Music: Mew Mew Power Theme

Ho hum. . . . So tired. . . . I fell asleep on the bed earlier and didn't hear Dad calling me to come in for prayer. XD; I don't think I'll stay online very long. . . . We're planning to definitely go out somewhere later today. ^^ Maybe I'll find something cool to buy. I have a coupon for Borders. And I wanna go to Media Play, but I'd settle for Best Buy. They have a great anime selection.

We've been playing the Anime Letter game at Indepth Anime. ^^ I always enjoy that. Sometimes my brain goes out the window when I get assigned a letter, though, and I can't for the life of me think of a good character to do. Then later it's like DUH! In your face! and I'm like . . . I can't believe I didn't think of that. . . . XD; That's like when I got assigned O and I couldn't come up with anything until it hit me that I could do Odion. That never occured to me because I call him Rishid (though I have nothing against the name Odion).

I can't believe it now happened again, twice, in rapid succession. o__o; I was assigned the letter R, but I had R last time, so I thought that maybe R should be given to someone else. Only I must admit that if I'd really been thinking, I would have clung to that R. LOL. In the next round I have been given V. I looked at that blankly for a minute and was like, Okay . . . V . . . Vivian Wong (who I know nothing about. Heh)? Then it's like HELLO! You can do Valon! I am so absentminded sometimes it's disgusting.

I suggested a new topic for Indepth Anime for when the next round finishes up: Which character in all of anime do you consider the most complex? If that idea is accepted, then I already know exactly which character I'd write about. ^^ I think Raphael is the most complex character from YGO, and indeed, from any anime show I've seen. =3 **cuddles him.** I love that guy.

I hope I'm not falling into another writing slump. . . . The mystery fic has been progressing very slowly and it's even worse with Candy Clouds. Then there's a one-shot that's going nowhere. XD; So frustrating. . . .

Current Mood: blah
Current Music: Dartz's Theme from YGO Sound Duel 3

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