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Yesterday was a long and interesting day that started with horrible, horrible insomnia. Ugggh. I was so tired I actually felt ill, and yet when I was able to lay down to sleep I didn't even get three hours worth of sleep! WTH? I rolled around for a long while, gave up, and watched the rest of something I was recording before it was time to get ready to meet a local friend for the new Turtles movie!

Honestly, I loved it overall. I kind of might love the first one a little more, but I don't know. They are both great. Like the first one, there was really only one crude moment. There was a little bit more swearing, but pretty much only at the beginning and then there wasn't any more. (YAY!)

( Mild spoilers )

We also went shopping a bit. I'd called Toys R Us and asked if they had Sugarcoat dolls and the guy couldn't find any. They had a whole bunch. **headdesk.** But she wasn't on sale, so I'm glad I went ahead a couple of days ago and bought her at Hasbro's eBay store. She was only $9.99 there and they have FREE SHIPPING. Also, people told me that they've shaped up and their shipping is faster than it used to be. As I'm watching the tracking information, I see it looks like that's true. I think she'll get here before the estimated date of June 16th, and even that isn't bad. One week is about what it takes for Amazon's free shipping.

I bought Charlie's Angels season 1 at K-Mart. I should have got it two weeks ago when I bought a present for my movie-going friend's birthday, but I held off because I wasn't sure I'd like season 1 as much and I wanted to review the episode guide again. I regretted not getting it the instant I got home and read it, ugh. It's been driving me nuts that it's taken so long to be able to get back up there to get it. We watched one of them already and it was fun. I love 1970's cheese.

Wal-Mart is having a sale on their basic Equestria Girls dolls, or rather, I think the price has just lowered to get rid of the stock so they can start getting in stuff for the new movie this year. I'm hoping to at least get Lemon Zest; I decided the expression on the basic doll is way cuter and more fitting for her than the expression on the deluxe doll (which can't seem to be found in the States anyway, oy vey). I was willing to pass on Sunny Flare, since she wasn't very nice through most of the movie, but I still think the post-movie novel didn't do her justice at all, and when I think about how she was really upset and shocked that Principal Cinch wanted to get away from "that monster" instead of trying to help Twilight, considering Cinch manipulated her into unleashing the magic in the first place, I think that Sunny Flare is probably really a pretty nice person. Plus, I love her color scheme. So I might end up getting her doll if I can only get one.

Each one has some flaws, though. Lemon Zest doesn't have her bangs, which is weird since Hasbro has been so good about giving bangs to the dolls whose characters have them. Her forehead looks so unflatteringly big without the bangs. (I think they used the Rainbow Rocks-era head for her that has a really high forehead.) And Sunny Flare's hair is long when it's actually short in the movie. I don't know why Hasbro wouldn't let her have short hair when the DJ doll has accurate, short hair. I could cut it, of course, but it's so beautiful that I hate to do that even for the sake of accuracy.

Of course, I'd really like to have them both, but I don't know if I'll be able to with money tighter than usual lately. It's been slow going on TextBroker for weeks. Sigh. I want to get at least one of them on Monday, though. Hopefully Wal-Mart will still have them; they have for the past couple of times, even with the price drop.

I've been planning for the Equestria Girls fic I want to write with the Crystal Prep girls. My next fic for that was going to be the one where Sunset Shimmer learned what happened to her naturally human counterpart and I was outlining some of it last week, but after reading that novel and feeling like the Crystal Prep girls just weren't portrayed IC, I really want to try my hand at writing them and see if I can do it better/more canon-accurate.

Sugarcoat will be portrayed as probably the only one Twilight really associated with in any kind of a friend capacity. Of course, they won't have been very close, but considering that Twilight reaches out to Sugarcoat and says her name, and Sugarcoat is actually the only Crystal Prep girl who calls Twilight by name anywhere in the movie, and since she sounded like she might have been trying to help Twilight improve herself in the early part of the film, I do kind of like to think that they had some connection. It might have just been that Sugarcoat was almost the only one willing to talk to Twilight at school, or maybe they were also at each other's houses a time or so. Still thinking on this.

Lemon Zest likes Twilight just fine; she never acted mean at all until the climax, when Cinch led all the students in ganging up on Twilight to unleash the magic. I think I'll portray her as friendly, but probably not really into the science scene like Twilight is. She's one of the top students, so she can likely do the work, but has no interest in it (like me with math). She wanted to share her music with Twilight, and maybe that happened semi-frequently. Twilight definitely didn't like her pounding rock music, or trying to be polite in listening to it, but in hindsight I think she would appreciate that Lemon Zest was generally nice to her. Usually, however, I'm guessing that Lemon Zest was lost in her own world of music and probably didn't approach Twilight except to get her to hear things.

Indigo Zap probably thinks Twilight is kind of an idiot after her awkward response to Indigo's "Are we gonna win?!" exclamation. She was also irritated when Twilight bumped into her and caused her to drop her glass. But she's loyal to Crystal Preppers. It was right after that irritation that she jumped to Twilight's defense when Canterlot High students wanted to know what she was doing. Whether her loyalty extends to former Crystal Preppers who transferred to another school, however ... good question. The movie did end with the schools on better terms, but she still might not like that Twilight left Crystal Prep and wonder why Twilight would do that. On the other hand, maybe she would have some level of understanding about it, after everyone ganged up on her and it resulted in her transformation once she unleashed the magic.

Sour Sweet was definitely the nastiest in the movie. But again, since it ended with everyone on better terms, figuring out exactly what to do with her will be a little hard. I think she still won't like Twilight, but she won't be as hostile as in the movie. She also, however, won't try to say some nonsense like that she was Twilight's friend at Crystal Prep. She clearly didn't want to associate with Twilight at all, and only did when circumstances forced them together. She and Sunny Flare seem to be friends in the movie and they seem to get along great, unlike the portrayal in the book.

Sunny Flare is the real puzzle. Since she's Rarity's counterpart, I might give her an interest in fashion. Or maybe she's a little vain. Or both. Maybe more stuck-up than just vain. She certainly won't be portrayed anything like the book portrayed her, what with being scared that Twilight will turn into a monster again. They all know it happened because she did what everyone was pressuring her to do and unleashed the magic, and Sunset Shimmer saved Twilight, so there's no real reason to believe that she'll turn into a monster again.

I'm really excited to try this fic out.

Current Mood: pleased

I always get wary when I get a review on something old. Actually, I tend to get wary whenever I get a review on anything that's never got many reviews. Sometimes I don't need to be. Other times ... eh.

So I get a comment on a Perry Mason oneshot which bears no name and consists solely of "terribly confusing." Which is extremely unhelpful, since it doesn't say WHAT is so confusing. And even worse, when I re-read the fic, it actually is not that confusing IF you've read the author's notes! I don't know why so many people don't. Usually if there's something that might be confusing, it's explained there.

As I recall, I deliberately removed some parts of that oneshot to make it more able to be read by anyone. It was one of my lost scenes from my fic The Case of the Broken Ties, but the main point of it was flashbacks to the episode The Case of Paul Drake's Dilemma, so I tried to remove most of the potentially confusing conversation about The Broken Ties' events. And I clearly marked where the flashbacks began and ended. And the only confusing things in the framing story were brief mentions of Paul and Hamilton needing to help everyone remember. Since I said in the author's notes that the framing story took place during my story The Broken Ties, anyone who was confused should have been able to take from that the knowledge that anything confusing was explained in that fic. There shouldn't be any other reason for confusion, unless they don't even remember the episode the story was really all about. (In which case I'd have to wonder why they were reading in the first place....)

Honestly, some people. And while it's a very minor thing, of course, and I won't even be thinking about it in a few minutes, it really wasn't what I needed today. Ugh. I've had about two and a half hours of sleep and don't know how I'm going to function for the very necessary grocery outing tonight. And it's not like we can do it tomorrow; there will be other things going on then.

Current Mood: exhausted

So last night I kept thinking of this really bizarre commercial I see sometimes lately when I'm watching Gotham. These people are sitting around drinking what I think is a Mountain Dew-produced energy drink. Either that or it's some other form of super-charged Mountain Dew soda. But it hypes them up so much that absolutely bizarre things seem to happen, like the scuba-diving figure in an aquarium starts moving and the deer's head on the wall says "Hi!" It ends with all of them dancing around, including the deer's head, which has somehow acquired the rest of the deer.

Honestly, if I thought a soda or an energy drink was going to hype me up so much that I'd start thinking inanimate objects were dancing around and talking to me, I doubt I'd want to touch it with a ten-foot pole.

Had another insomnia day. Had very little sleep and woke up thinking of ways I might be able to get my novel to actually move a little faster. So I worked on that until I got sleepy, but then I still couldn't go to sleep again. Auuuurgggh.

I did manage to outline several chapters and figure out how the thing should end, wrapping up some loose ends while leaving other things open-ended enough that the other installments could be written if the first one is successful. And I seem to have finished chapter 1, or will if I can get the last ending dialogue to come out right.

It seems pathetic that finishing only the first chapter can seem like such a triumph. But after several bad starts and complete rewrites and overhauls of the plot, not to mention probably about three or four years wrestling with the current plot, finishing a chapter is a triumph indeed.

I've also introed the Christopher Cary-inspired character from that dream I had months ago and his friend, who resembles Ralph Manza in The Cat From Outer Space but talks more like Walter Burke. I feel sad because in the dream his friend died, and I didn't want to do that in the novel, but as soon as I started writing his dialogue, I felt like it was likely that he would end up dying. I'd still rather he didn't, though.

For a novel, unlike fanfiction, real deaths are going to need to happen and not just Disney deaths. It's definitely going to be difficult choosing characters to not survive the storyline. I really really want Chrissy's friend to pull through, so hopefully I won't keep feeling like he has to die the more I write for him.

Current Mood: exhausted

Finally got some sleep. It waited until around 3 AM to hit me like a ton of bricks. So I was able to enjoy The Lawyers and sooo much adorable, precious Joseph!

Today I recorded a Joseph movie (Meteor 1979, which I know has bad reviews, but it looks like a nice movie from my initial skim-through and it seems that Joseph survives, so that's all I care about) and am going to record a Simon one next hour. It's Tony Rome, which I didn't like four years ago or so, but I did like Simon in it and he has a big part, so it seems like a good idea to record the movie when it's on (and uncut, wheee).

And I am so totally hyped up from seeing The Man from U.N.C.L.E. movie trailer! It just came out today and is up on YouTube. Henry Cavill seems to be doing an excellent job capturing Robert Vaughn's speech pattern. He was definitely making me laugh, just like Robert always does. And the fellow playing Illya, Armie Hammer, seems to be doing a good job at pulling off that accent. I'm still really looking forward to this and am hopeful it's going to be good (even though it is billed as a comedy).

I'm very glad to still be excited for the movie, especially since I'm not as enthused with Gotham lately. I half-wondered if my distress over this week's episode resulted in the Insomnia Day of Doom, but I wasn't even consciously thinking about the episode and I did sleep for those 40 minutes instead of just lying awake thinking, which is what usually happens if something I've watched is keeping me awake.

I really loved the show before the hiatus. And I still love some things about it and will probably keep watching for a little while, anyway. But I haven't been as impressed ever since it came off of hiatus, and the last couple of episodes have been a lot more gory and graphic and gross than the show had been up to that point. I said before that I'd be okay with kids watching the show. But I wouldn't want kids to see the last couple of episodes, oh gosh.

I really don't like how the show seems to be following the comic book trend where every villain has to be downright disgusting. The recent comic book Riddler is homicidal, which I don't like one bit. The 1960's Riddler was sadistic, partially for laughs, but this is a whole other ballgame. 1960's Robin said that the Riddler wouldn't just murder people for the heck of it, and it seems like the recent comic book Riddler murders all over the place. He even apparently killed his own daughter. No, just no.

Thankfully, Gotham's Edward Nygma isn't anywhere like that yet, but I was repulsed by the way he decided to try to get the medical examiner out. ( Spoilers )

Current Mood: excited

If you can believe it, I still haven't managed to capture any further sleep. I'm still running on 40 minutes of sleep and whatever is keeping me awake in the first place.

I like to read my stories for five minutes or so before attempting sleep, as somehow that can induce sleepiness better than immediately hopping into bed. And reading my stories is better than reading someone else's, since I already know what happens and I won't get hyped up wanting to know what happens next.

But that didn't work today. I must have read bits and pieces of two dozen or more of my Ginger and Lou fics without getting sufficiently sleepy (except when those @!&^%#^% sounds roused me as soon as I dozed, AUUUURGH!). Finally I gave up and read some of one of the Star Wars books I brought back from the library in order to read Boba Fett's storyline. Still wide awake, I got back on the computer for the third time during this disaster. I checked mail again, wrote some, removed a bad plot twist from a ficlet, and watched three Mike Hammer episodes (sooo much adorable Darren). Still nothing.

I really don't know what I'm ever going to do. When the insomnia is this bad, I wish sleep would just hold off until it's time to sleep again. Occasionally it will. But I'm afraid that this time it's going to hit me like a ton of bricks right when I most want to be awake: first, to see a Perry Mason episode with H.M. Wynant, and then to see The Lawyers episode (and oh, I hope it's one with Joseph. He's absent from about five episodes).

Current Mood: exhausted

I have had 40 MINUTES of sleep. I have been trying to go back to sleep for literally hours. I was in a wonderful, deep sleep and was cruelly and mysteriously dragged out of it. I can't get sleepy enough to go to sleep again, except at the exact moment noises are happening outside. These noises never come when I'm wide awake, but only at the precise moment I'm dozing off at last! Where is the justice in this?!

It's even more frustrating that it has to happen today. We're finally getting The Lawyers on Cozi for a few nights this week and I've been looking so forward to it. I've been waiting for 9 months for them to put that version of The Bold Ones back on! And unless I can get at least three hours of sleep (preferably more!), I'm probably going to be too tired to enjoy it when it finally comes on.

Every day is a struggle for sleep, but it always gets worse around late winter/early spring. For the last several years, anywhere from February to April, I end up with such extreme insomnia that I'm run ragged and have a physical meltdown. I feel dizzy and ill for a couple of weeks or more unless I eat practically constantly. Worse, some foods won't agree with me while it's happening, so I don't have a lot to choose from. I dread it every year and try so desperately to fight it off. I was successful only once. I don't understand what causes it every year at that particular time, nor why it only started happening the last few years and never before that. And I'm panicking because we have a big day outing to go to a family event at the beginning of March, and what if this horrible meltdown happens right then?

Nononononononono.... **cries.**

Current Mood: awake

So I had mega insomnia AGAIN and it was a very long day. This time, however, I finally got exhausted later and dropped into a nap. I burrowed under my soft Batman pajama top (which I use as a shawl since it's too hot to be used as a pajama top of mine) and also had my Boba Fett figure on the bed with me, under the top/shawl.

First I dream of some bizarre trip into town, and it was snowing, and nighttime, and we were in some place of business looking out the foyer door at the snow. I cannot bring to mind exactly what we were even doing there.

Then the dream changed and I had a Boba Fett figure collection, about four assorted figures of varying sizes. And I was having trouble getting them to stand up where I was trying to display them, which seemed to be on the jutting edges of the sides of bookcase shelves. Creepily, at least some of them were suspected to be haunted, as to why I couldn't get them to stand up no matter what I did with them. The dream ended when I was going to try new positions.

... If that's what happens when I sleep with my figure on the bed, maybe I'd better not do that again. **headdesk.**

It would be fun to have some of the other figures, though. There's a new small figure out, in a double-pack with a stormtrooper. It's really good and detailed. And there's the six-inch figure in the new Star Wars Black series. I cringe at the prices of those, though. But oddly enough, The Disney Store has them cheaper than anywhere else! $14.99 instead of $19.99. I don't remember if they have the Boba Fett one, though. It kind of seems like it's a Walgreens exclusive?

The Disney Store also has a talking Boba Fett. I need to try that sometime and see which voice it seems to have: something closer to the original voice or something closer to Jango's voice.

Since I grew up with the original Kenner figure, I kind of wish I could have one of those again, too. Very nostalgic, even though not as accurately detailed as recent ones. I have a little home movie my brother helped me make involving Kit and Molly from Talespin being kidnapped and Boba Fett coming to rescue them. LOL. So I can see my figure on that, at least. And my brother has that figure again, so I know it's in good hands. But I still kind of miss it sometimes.

And I'm so close to completing my Ginger and Lou

100songs challenge! There's only 15 left. 13, really, since I have two more short stories in the finishing stages. I'm still wondering what I'm going to do when I finish all 100, since I will undoubtedly want to keep writing about them. I'll need to scout through the theme comms again, or else choose another of the 100 Songs tables. The great thing about 100 Songs was that the mod had officially opened it to everyone posting whatever they wanted, instead of needing to have a claim approved. Most comms are not that way, so even if they're dead, I feel a little worried to rush in and start posting without being able to claim. I took some of the songs from the other 100 Songs tables to use on mine, though, since I wanted to replace a few prompts and I used four others for the Writer's Choice ones. So it might be difficult choosing one of the other tables for a second round. And I might like to have a new challenge with a lesser number of prompts than 100. But 100Songs appealed to me the most when I was looking for one. Another annoying complication is that many of the prompt comms are for pairings only. Some I really liked the themes on and then was disappointed to see it was only for pairings. Bah. And as much as I always wanted to support the comm

platonicism, the prompts just never inspired me and I was never able to do anything with them.

It seems like I wanted to talk some about Ginger specifically, but I'm not even sure what I wanted to say. I'll probably sort it out as soon as I post this.

I know I've been musing some on how I portray him in most of the fics, rather calm and mellow. But his general mood in canon does seem to be complete calm, and part of the scary thing about him is not knowing when he'll snap. I know a couple of times I wince a bit when I see one thing or another I've written him doing, like collapsing into Lou's arms hugging him after an experience where he flipped out because of a head injury and tried to attack everyone until Lou calmed him down. If he'd just collapsed, that would have been alright, but I don't think he would have hugged in that situation. But in general, whenever I have doubts, I go back and watch his and Lou's scenes again and end up feeling like I'm not straying from his characterization and he would probably behave very similarly in the situations I put them in. He and Lou are more affectionate with each other/Ginger allows affection more than in the episode, but the fics are after they spent time in prison and I have Ginger open up more to Lou because of that time. He's still very dangerous to enemies and will snap if something tips him over the edge (usually Lou being harmed). Usually the stories take place during peaceful times; many are slice-of-life with Ginger and Lou just talking or doing household things like decorating or searching for missing objects. Ginger might still wish they were stealing jewels, but he's accepted going straight and prefers a life where they're not in danger of going to prison again. But he is fierce and vicious whenever a danger to their existence comes along. He is still a dark soul in some ways and likely always will be.

I really adore writing for him and Lou, and Snakes, and other oneshot episode characters. When they have so little official screentime, I kind of feel like they're half "mine" because of all the love and thought and fleshing out I put into them (and the fact that it's very unlikely that anyone else loves them as much as I do). Yet at the same time, they're not all mine because they also belong to the writers and actors who created them. It's nice to have a basic template to work with, instead of just creating from scratch. Creating characters and worlds from scratch is infinitely HARD. And a great thing about writing for others' characters, even oneshot characters, is that you can see them on the screen and not just in your mind. It's so fun to actually watch the actors bring them to life! Of course, many (or most) times, it's the actors' portrayals that inspire me to love them and want to write more about them. It's definitely the case with Ginger and Lou, where the actors have such amazing chemistry and the characters seem close even though they don't speak of it.

Current Mood: nostalgic

Ugggh. I had absolute killer insomnia yesterday. I was so eager for a shopping trip that I kept not being able to sleep and I'm not even sure I ever did. If I did, it was somewhere in the neighborhood of 90 minutes. I definitely crashed when we got home. But I was only trying to have a nap at that point and I slept too long and now I can't seem to get any more sleep. **headdesk.**

The trip was a lot of fun, even though I couldn't find everything I wanted. But I found a surprise when I popped in at the comic book store: for once they actually had something I wanted! I got the sixth issue of the recent Six Million Dollar Man comic. That leaves #5 to get. I'm a little disappointed, though, as from #6 I can tell that there probably isn't any Oscar hurt/comfort in #5, and the alarming cover of #5, with him clutching a chest wound, made me think that there would be some really intense Oscar hurt/comfort going on. It seems like the covers of comic books often don't match the stories inside, intensity-wise.

I still don't like the utter bizarreness of the people being infected by an alien substance and turning into monsters. That is too weird even for that cheesy (but awesome) show. But at least it looked like Steve and Jaime have been able to help them recover.

Oliver Spencer's fate is now up in the air, though, as he tried to use his mind to lock into the rampaging robot's mind and force it to stop, and instead he was electrocuted and is unconscious and they're not sure if his consciousness is still linked to that blasted robot, which is still loose and will apparently play into a new arc, if there is one. Gah.

I love how the comic took a basically disliked character and really fleshed him out. Oliver still acts like a jerk sometimes, but we know at least part of his reason for his intensity (wanting to find a way to help his crippled daughter). And he has a heart for other people's suffering too and is horrified by the things the monster does when it goes out of control. Upset over his part in creating the beast, he risks his safety to try to stop it. Steve wants to help find a way to wake Oliver up and reunite the little family, even though he doesn't like Oliver.

I think Oliver is really unfairly demonized by a lot of the fanbase. I ranted about that recently on Tumblr. http://lucky-ladybugs-lovelies.tumblr.com One of my main annoyances is how everyone gets up in arms over his most infamous comment, that it's too bad Steve can't be put into hibernation and only wake up for missions, but they don't get that he really didn't even sound completely serious when he said it. It was a nasty comment and shouldn't have even been made in jest, but even in the comics they make it sound like it wasn't just an idle crack and was instead something he actually tried to enforce. In the movie, I don't recall any such thing. It was just a remark that I doubt he had any real intention of following up on.

Barney Hiller was operated on by a doctor and now has robotic parts. It looks like a whole exo-skeleton, really. And whatever happened in #5 apparently resulted in Steve's bionics being so damaged that they were forced to operate on him and give him the bionic limbs that the rampaging robot tore off of Barney. Steve doesn't know, and boy, is he going to be furious when he finds out. They really didn't have a choice, when they desperately need Steve to help with these problems and Barney is too mentally unstable to be an agent, but it's still unsettling. Rudy commented on that, and Oscar agreed, but he didn't see that they could have done anything else under the circumstances. It's not like they have spare bionic limbs and millions of dollars for expensive operations lying around. And I'm assuming Steve had to be operated on right then or he might have died.

I'm glad to finally know how the arc wrapped up, but they left so many things open-ended and the bionic program is still down, because apparently the Secretary of State has been replaced by a robot and won't green-light it going operational again. Uh oh. Oscar got to be awesome and yell at him about how they need Steve and Jaime as agents. It won't be pretty when he finds out the truth.

At Barnes and Noble, they didn't have the anthology book that I decided I wanted the most. And since I was saving money for Sailor Moon (which I found, squeee), I decided that since I'd bought the surprise comic, maybe I wouldn't buy a book too. After all, I want to save some money for next month.

I did look at the Legacy of the Force series, and while I take issue with the storyline of Han and Leia's son going bad and killing Luke's wife (!!!!), I am dying to read Boba Fett's storyline. After comparing some earlier stories written before episode II came out with some stories that came out after episode II, like Legacy, I determined that with Boba's backstory revealed, the writers more often than not portray him as a more human character instead of so completely cold. There are some earlier stories that depict him as showing kindnesses sometimes, including the awesome one in Tales From the New Republic, but overall, most of the stories like that came out after episode II. I already know how his storyline plays out in Legacy, and that he eventually gets a happy ending, but after peeking in some of the books, I'm more intrigued than ever and absolutely must read. In particular, I love that we learn about his family (he tried to get married and settle down once, although that didn't work out as he had hoped) and that Han and Leia's daughter goes to him for help when she wants to train in order to defeat her corrupted brother. Also, he talks to Jango a lot in his thoughts. This Boba Fett is very open to the readers, unlike the mysterious character of earlier novels that even the readers couldn't always figure out.

Since I don't like some of the plot of Legacy, I wasn't sure I wanted to actually spend money on any of that series. The library has three of them, including the first one, so I'm hoping to try at least that one from there and if I decide that I adore it in spite of the plot elements I detest, I'll probably go ahead and buy the others that Boba Fett plays a part in. I'll have to buy some of them, since the library only has those three. Oh, if only there was a county system....

And I've seen three Sailor Moon episodes on my set so far. It feels so good to see the classic anime again. The pace is really much better than in the manga/Crystal. I prefer it to not be so frenetic, especially since character-developing stuff often happens in the filler episodes.

(Also, after peeking in some of the manga, I don't quite understand why people complain about Minako's ditziness in the anime. She really seems pretty ditzy in the manga, too. It's only in Crystal and the live-action where she's more serious. And the first season of the classic anime.)

I'm happy to say that the frame-ghosting isn't really an issue when watching, as I hoped. It probably only becomes a problem if you're taking screengrabs. However, I am irritated that it can't be full-screened. It's a picture in the center of giant, thick black lines on all four sides. But it's a big enough size that I don't have to be right up by the computer to read the subs, so that's okay. It's about the size of the screen on Hulu.com.

I'm just so happy to have more Sailor Moon that's all my own. Aside from this set, I only have two dub DVDs and four subbed: two S and two SuperS. I'll probably never be able to afford the older, better season sets, so these new ones will have to do in spite of the flaws. I'm very excited for the next release in February! I hope they'll keep being steady like this and there won't be big gaps between releases.

Current Mood: thirsty

I am getting so sick of having extreme insomnia in Springtime! I don't know WTH I'm allergic to, but this is just so ridiculous! Today I dozed a little bit in the morning. Then I laid down for a proper sleep, but because I'd dozed, my body decided it wouldn't let me sleep any more! And I'm going out tomorrow! I need to have a good rest!

Almost every Spring this happens. And my body keeps pushing itself and letting me have less and less sleep until finally it can't take it and I have maybe one really good sleep again. Either that or I get sick from lack of sleep and the insomnia continues through that.

And I'm starting to feel a little guilt over buying another Rarity plush, just like I felt over Twilight. Interestingly, I didn't really feel that over Fluttershy. Maybe because I was on a high from loving the Build-a-Bear Twilight and was eager to get another favorite Pony in the set. I'm sure when I see Rarity in the store, all guilt will depart in favor of adoring the gorgeousness.

I'm also hoping to go to Toys R Us and get one of the infamous Princess plushies, if they have them. If both are available, I'll probably choose Celestia, but I'd be happy with either her or Cadance. Even though they're more expensive than Wal-Mart (which still refuses to get them), I think they're worth that to me, and it's certainly better than what they've been going for online.

I wish people would post their pictures of the Rarity, Sweetie Belle, and Scootaloo plushies that they're getting. I've been waiting all day to see pictures other than the stock pictures, but nobody's posting, even though some people are announcing they've got the plushies. I remember how fun it was when Fluttershy was released and people posted pictures of theirs and of any clothes they got for her.

Also, I've never actually bought a gift card in my life. It puzzles me when I see people saying they're going to go buy a gift card and use that to get something, because I always thought that you had to pay whatever price was on the card. Like, if it's $25, you really have to pay $25 to get it. But it doesn't seem logical that people would do that if they're going to turn around and use the card for something else they want to buy, so I figure there must be another answer. I've searched online and I can't find any really satisfactory information on how and what to pay for gift cards. It's very annoying.

Current Mood: exhausted

I find it ironic and melancholy, that the above is the title of the last Perry Mason episode. I wonder if that was done on purpose? The storyline involves a film set, but the title could easily be a reference to the show's end as well as the plot.

It was a very good ending episode. I liked it a lot better than the color episode overall. But one thing I was surprised by was Mr. Burger's reason for wanting to apologize. Hearkening back to the days of season 1, Mr. Burger had an especially severe outburst during one of the two hearings in the episode, believing Perry was up to his antics of skirting the law and this time, setting things up to make Mr. Burger look ridiculous. (Something Perry would never deliberately do, as he has a great deal of respect for Mr. Burger.) Such outbursts concerning Perry skirting the law happened a lot in season 1 and became tiresome (although at the same time I couldn't fault Mr. Burger that much, because the things he thought Perry did were usually things Perry did do to some extent). But after season 1, that level of outburst began to recede. (So did Perry's eyebrow-raising methods of protecting his clients.) Even when Burger became upset in later seasons, I'm not sure it ever went back to season 1 proportions, until that final episode.

The books' author, Erle Stanley Gardner, appeared in that episode, playing one of the two judges. I have to kind of wonder if he wanted the last episode/the episode he would be in to be more like the books and therefore requested Burger to grow that incensed once more. It was really quite a jolt after season 6.

But in any case, Burger's awkwardness and guilt at the end was adorable. That's one thing that I'm pretty sure the book version never had. That Mr. Burger would probably never dream of apologizing. I almost wonder if his outburst in the episode was more because he was humiliated at being led into a trap (which was set by the witness alone and not engineered by Perry in any way) and not that he really believed Perry had any involvement. Hence, that would explain why he calmed down without it being expressly said that he learned the truth. (I'm not sure if he did.)

Or maybe it was just the formulaic writing rearing its head again. Mr. Burger and Perry made excellent sparring partners without needing to throw in the extra element of Mr. Burger suspecting Perry of illegal activities (although he was often justified in the early episodes), but the writers always seemed to like to go back to that now and then (despite rarely letting it grow to season 1 levels). Maybe it's kind of like how the Sonic the Hedgehog writers like to keep making Knuckles gullible over and over so that it's really a headache. Knuckles is still my favorite character, and I just try to ignore the awful rehash writing because it doesn't make sense anymore. No one as smart as Knuckles could really be that gullible again and again. But they keep writing it, I assume because they think that makes the Sonic and Knuckles conflict better. It actually just makes Knuckles look stupid.

... And I got a silent giggle when Lieutenant Drumm exclaimed to Perry that Perry must have really turned Mr. Burger on. Of course, Drumm was referring to Mr. Burger's anger and not anything else, but I could imagine how slashers might take it.

In other Perry-related news, I had a very disastrous burst of insomnia yesterday due to my nervousness over a bunch of things that needed to be done later that day. When I finally fell asleep after all was accomplished I had some very interesting dreams, especially one where some creepy witness in court had it in for Mr. Burger and suddenly pulled a gun and tried to shoot him. He failed, but two or three bullets sailed around the courtroom, much to everyone's shock and horror.

Current Mood: amused
Current Music: Cool---West Side Story soundtrack

Yesterday was a very long day, filled with things such as more insomnia and an insistent allergy attack/cold (all of which overstayed their unwelcome through today). -.- But I did get plunnied for the blurb below. X3

And I saw some adorable geese swimming (and honking)! ^O^ I love waterfowl; I think they and chickens are probably my favorite birds. And peafowl. **so amused thinking of that peacock walking around the zoo.**

This blurb is for the third Southwest/West fic. X3

( Private Property )

Current Mood: excited
Current Music: Rockapella parodies The Brady Bunch Theme

I am getting so tired of sleeping for four and a half hours and then waking up without being able to go back to sleep! -___-;

I finally finished my chapter, so I'm getting more confident about being able to read things. Hopefully I can catch up on replying to entries and such.

And I was just reminded that I need to finish The Diamond Rose Glass. XD Which I really want to do, but can't seem to get back to ever since realizing part of what I had planned for the climax won't work. **headdesk.** Very discouraging. But hmm.... Maybe now that my tornado chapter's done, I can get The Diamond Rose Glass out and look it over. X3

It's amusing how rusty early fics in a fandom can sound. **would like to redo some things in her early FF7 fics, such as A New Beginning.** And I was thinking about fictional Elliott's characterization in my Carmen fics. He was really tense and short-tempered in those first few stories. I added other things here and there, like his clumsiness in the second fic, but I don't think it was until I heard Kingdom of Shy and wrote You Won't Be So Far Away that I really started figuring out how I wanted to write him---sweet and shy, but with a righteously indignant streak that flares up when his friends are being hurt. And of course, he's more intelligent than season 3 portrayed him as being. XD;

Sean was actually a bit of a puzzle to me too at first, but I think I was able to figure him out by the end of Walk Like an Egyptian. XD;

Current Mood: exhausted

I come to you with three and a half hours of sleep! Insomnia is getting so old. -.-

I hope Aubrie will be able to get on again soon.... The big storm knocked out something there, power or cable, probably. She vanished Thursday night due to it. And while I know she's probably fine, I am still a bit jumpy anyway, moreso since my cousin and his wife burned to death in their home earlier this week. o.o

I was really shocked when Mom came and told me. It really upset me too, even though I've only met him once or so. I felt like he was a friend, almost, because of how Mom always told fun stories about when she and he would have adventures when they were younger (such as getting stuck in the middle of nowhere with a stalled car and having to walk back to civilization and thinking that someone was following them). And it makes me more paranoid wondering if I'll die soon, even though I know that isn't a realistic additude. -.-;

Stuff like that makes me cling to my hurt/comfort all the more, instead of pushing it away, as some might think. XD; I find my hurt/comfort to really be a comfort, since in that world, there is cuteness and often, not real death!

And over the last few days I've gotten really restless about Snow White Queen. I finally said "Screw it!" and wrote the prologue, because I had the feeling that No Way Out will not get written as long as I'm really longing to write the other fic. No Way Out won't *have* to be read first. Snow White Queen will be a standalone fic, though of course it will follow the continuity I started with Ghosts. I rarely post links to my fanfics at LJ, but because I love this so much and I really want opinions: http://www.fanfiction.net/s/3269484/1/ Please, if you'd be willing to look and review at the site, I'd be very grateful!

Also, I was bored and randomly started writing a study of Gin as he appears in my fics. Which now randomly has a few edits/additions of things I forgot I wanted to add. And I would like to note that Gin's weariness as displayed in my fics is based on my interpretation of canon, specifically a page in volume #42. I am aware that there are many ways to look at it, but I have chosen one such way and stuck with it, since that's how I interpreted it when I first saw it and since it fits with my timeline. XD

( Gin )

Current Mood: tired
Current Music: Winter Wonderland

And a lovely icon! ^^ A gift icon made for me by Aubrie, at my request. **pets it.** She always makes these kind so neat!

Here's the quizzes. The first is from Joleen. The second is from my old entries again. XD I never finished it, and now I decided to give it another go.

( The Quizzes! )

And in other news, I can't shake this latest bout of insomnia. -.-; For instance, I had three and a half hours of sleep one day, but the next I still got only four and a half. I feel like making fun of such evilness by making a sequel to my Insomnia fic. XD

For everyone in America, Happy Thanksgiving! Foood. X3

Current Mood: cheerful
Current Music: Joy to the World

Spent the better part of the evening reading the transcript of FF VII. XD Man, that took forever. I also watched a few cutscenes on YouTube. I ended up with the conclusion that Reno in the game and Reno in the movie really don't seem that different. **scratches head.** I dunno, I keep hearing that he's so different from one to the other, and I really don't see it that much. XD; Reno seems like a goofball in the game same as in the movie, such as when he walked through the flowers and then turned back and told the people with him not to walk on them. LOL. And on the other hand, he also seems very serious about what he does in both. I dunno, I wonder if the difference is that he doesn't seem to interact with Rude as much in the game as in the movie?

At any rate, I'm gonna be hoping for a plotbunny to strike with these two soon. XD

Meanwhile, I think I'm almost done with chapter 2 of No Way Out, finally! I'm going to take a break and then come back to it and see about touching it up.

I got chapter 1 of Purple Skies up yesterday, thank goodness.

I'm thinking about joining the 100_Situations theme comm. That could definitely give me some good h/c plunnies. Though I ponder over whether I should try to sign up for Gin and Vodka or Reno and Rude. XD In one way, I wish I could try both.

And the insomnia continues. I still haven't been able to get much sleep. **had five hours this time.** Whee. This spell has been going on for nearly two weeks, I think.

Current Mood: calm

This is really unfair! I only got five and a half hours of sleep yesterday, but it was impossible to sleep! I was so tired that I actually fell asleep for a nap at one point, but later when I got into bed I tossed and turned for TWO HOURS. WTH? I've had about four hours and forty-five minutes of sleep today. I want sleep.

And I'm trying to call the tech support for the mouse since they're open, to see what they have to say. They're really cheap-seeming and unprofessional. They don't play music while you're on hold, and every thirty seconds a recording comes on that says, "Technicians are still busy. Please continue to hold." This is ridiculous! My dad thought I should see what the technicians had to say about the mouse, but apparently I'm not going to be able to talk to them. I'm about to give up and just go with my brother's advice. I'm on hold right now as I'm typing this. I've had enough.

I did get to watch most of volume three of Saiyuki earlier. It was awesome. X3 Of course. So much friendship cuteness and hurt/comfort. . . . And the swearing level was around the same as in the movie, with the same words, so that's satisfying.

Current Mood: frustrated

I'm running off, so I'll make this quick. XD; I've had insomnia for a week and a half. Ugh. Yesterday I tossed and turned for three and a half hours before I went to sleep. -___-; On Thursday we watched one of my nephews. He's a cute little guy. ^^ He seems to like to be sung to.

Here's my latest blurb. I tried Aubrie's suggestion of not using the contractions except when the characters were speaking. I tried that in the latest chapter of my new Doom fic, too. It feels strange, but it does look better.

( Explosion Aftermath )

Current Mood: thirsty

YULETIDE TERROR IS DONE! YES! It was about time. XD; And now it can lead right into the next mystery, Crimes for Christmas. I'm bringing in some new characters to my mystery fics. Most of them wandered into the first chapter. ^___^ Which is already posted, BTW! And I tweaked my blurb when I put it into the chapter because I was reading this sweet poem over the weekend about a little girl ghost who comes to get help for her still-living mother, who's laying at death's door. Of course I couldn't let such a great opportunity go to waste. Say hello to this cute little kid. **waves at boy with red hair and gray eyes.** He comes to get help for his older brother. ^___^ So far in the reviews for the chapter, Lisa was the only one to make a guess on who those unnamed people are. XD

I am so freaking tired. XD; I only got like six hours of sleep and it was one of those times when the pillow doesn't feel very soft. Ugh. Plus, I was having odd biker dreams, like I have been for the past couple of nights. And I'm too tired to figure out how to answer the rest of the questions on my Speech exam. Oh well. Maybe I'll be more awake later.

Current Mood: tired
Current Music: O Holy Night

So tired....... Sleeeeeeeeep.......

I am happy, though. XD I finally dared to inspect my nail a lot closer and found that somehow, a new nail must have been growing under the piece that was flapping loose. XD; So I took the loose piece off and there is no pain and there is still a nail! YES!

I think I will write a little one-shot fic with Cossack keeping vigil over a wounded Bass just for my own personal enjoyment. I'm still planning to end part 3 with Bass sacrificing himself and I don't think I'll change my mind. But I'm planning that the body is never recovered, leaving the possibility open that perhaps he got away alive again. ^__~

I wish I could write Sonic fics with a character other than Fang as the main one. XD; Knuckles and Shadow are my other favorite characters in the fandom, but the thought of writing a Knuckles fic seems to overwhelm me. Dunno why, though. Knuckles is one of those tough guy/loner characters I like. ^__^ And then of course Shadow dies, so a fic with him would either have to be before the end of SA2 (making for a very angsty piece, no matter what the content) or else he would have to be in spirit form. I don't think I'll go the way of so many fanfic writers and bring him back to life. XD; I'd rather do something more original. Oh, I need to write Shadow and Maria cuteness!

It's my parents' anniversary today. ^__^ 21 years! WHOO!

Fang. . . . Actually, I always call him Nack in my fics. XD I dunno, though. . . . Maybe Nack's his real name and Fang is his "feared bounty hunter" name. All the main characters in the Sonic fandom seem to be named after an attribute of theirs (with the possible exception of Amy Rose): Sonic, Tails, Knuckles, Shadow, Rouge. . . . Hmm. Rouge. . . . What kind of a name is that? XD I assume that all of those names (with the exception of Shadow) are simply nicknames. We know Tails' real name is Miles. I heard somewhere that Maurice is Sonic's real name, but maybe that's just a rumor. I play Fang as a Texas bounty hunter. I wonder what it'd be like if I leaned toward the other popular opinion and made him Australian. . . .

I have such weird musings when I'm tired. XD Maybe I just like the sound of the keyboard.

Current Mood: tired
Current Music: Chao Race Extended Remix from Sonic Adventure 2

Oh yeah, I forgot to tell how I enjoyed it. Well, the aftermath of Shelob's Lair was better than the movie version. Much angstier! But for that scene, I'd say the book has it the best.

I didn't really like too many of the voice actors XD Aragorn and Boromir were just .... wrong. XD Arwen sounded old >< It was weird hearing Bilbo's voice coming out of Frodo's mouth XD I know, I'll tell the ones I liked: Sam's, Gandalf's, Pippin's, Galadriel's, Celeborn's. . . . I couldn't stand Gollum's XD

I have Castle in the Sky. It has a pendant in it. I'm hoping it'll help me write Paper Flowers. I WILL get that story done!!

Evil cold. **kicks it.** Couldn't even get back to sleep when I wanted to 'cause it decided it would be fun to make it impossible to breathe.

Current Mood: mellow

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Entries tagged with insomnia

Turtles and Equestria Girls

... Okay then.

Wow.

YESSSSS!

AUUUURGH!

cries.

Weird.

Hmm.

AUUUUUUGH!

The Final Fade-Out

Blurb

falls over.

Stuff

Quizzes!

Final Fantasy VII

GAAH!

New Blurb

dances.