Ramblings and Musings of the Insane, Philosophical Ladybug

It looks like Snowocalypse isn't coming here, despite the news reports. I'm alright with that, but I wish we'd get *some* snow. Instead it's a bright sunny day without a cloud in sight.

And I forgot to mention one other fic plunnie I had. This one is courtesy of an episode of the old crime show Highway Patrol and has the majority of the plot lifted from the episode.

The plot involved a young couple out camping and they end up falling and getting hurt. The guy can't get up, so the girl needs to go get help. But she's ended up with total amnesia. She isn't even speaking. She wanders down to the road and is found by the Highway Patrol. They then have to unravel the mystery of who she is and if anyone else was with her. Eventually, after they determine who she is, some part of her starts to remember something and she leads them to the campsite and then to where her husband is. Her memory comes back and there's a squee reuniting scene.

In adapting it to a Tutu plot, Ahiru and Fakir are out investigating something and have the fall. Fakir is probably knocked out, and possibly pinned by a tree branch or something, instead of having a broken hip like the guy in the episode. But Ahiru gets the total amnesia. She wanders around and is found by Autor. He then has to figure out what happened, try to get Ahiru to talk to him and remember, and locate Fakir.

paranormal25 says that since amnesia is so rare in real life, just amnesia alone is enough to fill their Amnesia prompt, without it needing to have brought about by something supernatural. I'm probably using the plunnie with that prompt. Originally I had wanted to do something with Autor getting the amnesia, but I like this plot a lot better.

I have problems with Autor being the major cause of angst, anyway. After his descent into madness in Fall From Grace and his death in the Phantom Hitchhiker series, I like it better for him to not be the bringer of angst. True, in the thriller fic there's the underlying problem of Fakir believing Autor is dead, but that isn't the driving force of the fic and Autor mostly plays the part of concerned rescuer. Fakir's abduction by the gang provides the main conflict.

The problem is, that since I don't want to overdo it with Autor as the victim, I may end up overdoing it with Fakir as the victim. Although this amnesia fic would have both Ahiru and Fakir as victims.

And of course, with regular old hurt/comfort I have no problem with Autor being a victim. I'm sure he will continue to be such in many future escapades, including in the mystery fics.

He'll probably continue to be a bringer of angst in many of the unpublished blurbs for 30_deathfics, too. At least one more of those will take place in the Phantom Hitchhiker series, and then who knows what will be the case with some of the others. Blurbs, not going up on FF.net, often aren't as polished and can be far stranger than finished fics. The thing I did for prompt #2 at that comm was quite odd. Although it was also one of the most polished.

I'm going to start writing chapter 3 of Twilight and Dawn now. Meanwhile, here's a short blurb/exercise near the end of Twilight and Dawn. I'm trying to get to know the sane Sephiroth while Cloud is trying to piece together WTH is going on. XD This isn't the same as the epilogue scene I was talking with Lisa about, but it's the beginning of Cloud's musings that he will continue in said epilogue.


( Sephiroth Musings )


We got a bunch of snow yesterday. X3 In the morning it was all blizzardy, and you could hardly see beyond it. It was an attack of snow! XD It's lovely heavy wet snow, too. I wish I wasn't coughing and whatnot. I'd go out and try to make a snow sculpture with it.

We have snow outside! It's been snowing all day, and it's probably still coming down now. It's all nice and Christmasy.

Matty made this icon. ^^ I've been wanting one of Valon's hair popping for months. XD It amuses me greatly.

I got hit by a barrage of plot bunnies over the weekend. XD I've been working on the two requested blurbs. I think Aubrie's is done. SK's is going more slowly as I try to get a feel for the Saiyuki characters. ^^; But it's coming along!

Also, the Chaotix was on Sonic X last Saturday, and every time that happens, my Sonic X fic just screams to be written. This time I was able to piece it together enough to start writing! I'm combining all of my Sonic X ideas into one fic. It will take place in Season 2, right after Cream had to fight ML when he went berserk. Fang the Sniper will make his appearance, and I will tell the story behind Mighty's non-existence. XD; **hates it when characters vanish without a trace.** It will be a dark fic, with mention of death and how various characters deal with it. The death(s) are real, too. No coming back.

I found it very easy to slip into writing for the Sonic characters, even the Chaotix, whom I haven't written for much at all, and Chris, whom I have never written for before. I wonder if I will write for Fang any differently than I used to. Calling him Fang in and of itself is something different. XD; He hasn't appeared in the fic yet, but he's been talked about, and he's really the key to the whole thing. I need to decide what he's there for in the first place. Maybe he'll have a mission. It reminds me of a story idea someone suggested long ago about having him kidnap Cream. I just don't know what his motive would be.

Then, thanks to a song that Aubrie posted in her music community on Saturday (and the ensuing discussion about it), I decided to add some stuff about Siegfried's relationship with his mother in the psychological fic I've been doing. And I've finally decided to take the plunge and write stories for each person that the self-proclaimed Grim Reaper goes after. Both Aubrie and Stacey have encouraged it, and it should be an interesting challenge, especially doing a chapter for Pegasus. XD; I also decided that the person whom the guy goes after last will stop him. There will probably be four parts (they'll be too long and stand-alone to be called chapters), with maybe an epilogue.

The other day I got an email about the Azureshipping fanlisting moving to a new address. I followed it there with the intention of unsubscribing, and then I decided to read the "Why?" section. The person who runs the thing is actually quite devoted to keeping things canon, and she expressed that the fanlisting was both for actual shippers and those who want Seto and Téa to just be friends. She touched on some of the reasons why I like them as friends, pretty much. So anyway I decided not to unsubscribe.

That and Aubrie asking me what I think of the Seto and Tazi pairing got me musing again on how a friendship with Seto actually would go. I can't really picture Seto openly acknowledging any sort of relationship like that, friendship or romantic. He'd let the person tag along with him and be civil enough, but I just can't seem to see him getting affectionate. Basically he'd probably be the same as he always has been, and the differences would be subtle, such as him not doing as much insulting and stuff like that. XD; Very occassionally in a romance I imagine he would have to let his defenses down, but I doubt it would happen too much and that's kinda how I play him against Aubrie's Tazi and also with Yaminah, who he's friends with. I always loved writing scenes with Seto and Téa in my mystery fics. XD They're good counters for each other.

And of course I always did like Téa in general. I never did understand the immense hatred of her in the fandom, and I still don't. XD; She's a strong female character who doesn't take crap from anyone and always stands up to people. And as Dai_Atlas points out, Yami Yugi talks a lot more about friendship than Téa does. So what's the deal? Frankly, I think the majority of Téa haters are the fangirlish idiots who complain that Téa is in the way of them being with Yami Yugi, or in the way of the Yami YugiXYugi pairing. Of course not all of them are like that, but I still don't get the arguments, even when they're presented in a level-headed way.

The past couple of days I've been working on a picture of Alister clutching at Valon's injured body, looking like he's going to have a nervous breakdown. When I mentioned it to Aubrie, she said it reminded her of that fic with the war flashbacks. http://www.side7.com/cgi-bin/S7SDB/Display.pl?act=image&iid=320706

Well, I actually got my shirt completed. Dad helped me with it starting on Tuesday evening. We spent ages puzzling over how to work the pattern. XD; After two calls to my grandma, we sorted things out and got the material cut. Then the sewing began! The first night we got the basic thing sewn up, but it still needed hemming and the hood (and the chains). On Wednesday we didn't do anything with it. I went to the youth activity and to my shock, we went to the corn field even though it had been raining like mad. XD; Oh I am so glad I didn't fall. My boots got caked with mud, though. I spent a while trying to get it all off when I got home. ANYWAY, so then on Thursday we got back to the shirt and sewed the hood and my dad figured out how to attach it while I did most of the hemming myself. ^___^! **is quite proud, since she has never used a sewing machine before.** Then Dad sewed the hood on for me and the end result looked awesome. I couldn't seem to sew the chains on right, so finally I pinned them on with safety pins. XD; It looks good. When we get the pictures developed, I'll post my costume up at Cosplaylab.com. I wound up using flannel instead of fleece, but dang, it was softer and nicer than I thought it would be. **pats it.** Flannel was cheaper, too, but the main reason I got that kind of material was because my Wal-Mart was out of lavender fleece. ^__~

So then on Friday I went to the Halloween party my church was having. I signed up to help out with stuff, so I wound up running the fishing booth for the kids (at my choice, because I've always loved the fishing booths). Business was hopping. XD I really enjoyed it, except for this frustrating girl who kept trying to reach around and grab extra pieces of candy. --.--;;; Some kids. My dad came over when the news ended and he was just in time for the food. Some rude people claimed our seats even though we'd already laid our belongings on them to state that they were occupied, but other than that things were good. ^__^ After the food, they were showing a movie (The Ghost and Mr. Chicken), but Dad didn't really wanna watch it and I have it here at home, so we decided to go get his books from the university instead. On the way home he let me stop at Barnes and Noble in the Gateway and I finally got book one of The Bounty Hunter Wars. XD That's my favorite of the trilogy, actually. I read it from the library two and a half years ago, but I'd never gotten around to buying it until now. **huggles it.**

Saturday I had intended to come online to chat at some point, but that never happened. XD; I was answering the door in the evening (Halloween is celebrated on Saturday in my area when it falls on Sunday) and then Larry and JoDee came over with Dean and we all visited for thirty minutes or so. Then I decided I wanted to go show my next door neighbor my costume and I found that it was a nice, mild evening and so I then decided to go around to some other houses (I'd originally thought it'd be too cold). After that, I came home and wrote more of part 2 of my Bass.EXE trilogy, still wearing my costume because it felt nice and comfortable and also because I still wanted to show my aunt my costume. This is the aunt who still lives in my neighborhood. The other two live farther away now. **nodnod.** So anyway, then Mom called over again and found that she was home, so Dad took me over and I visited with her for a little bit. She told me I looked like Marik. ^___^ When I came home, I finished writing my trilogy with the extra hour of Saturday. I only went online to post the thing and quickly check everyone's Livejournals. Shortly after the trick-or-treaters stopped coming around, it started to SNOW! Muwahahaha. Okay, so it was only a dusting, but STILL. . . .

Sunday was extremely cold. XD It was a nice, quiet day, spent with going to church, having a nap, going to practice for The Messiah, playing the piano, writing in my notebook, and coloring a picture of Bass while we had our family hour thing. I had a really weird dream when I had my nap. It had something to do with a cemetery and Bass (robot Bass).

I finished watching my MKR tapes last week. They were both from season 2. One was tape 3 and the other was the final one, tape 7. When I first watched the episodes on the last tape, I was surprised when Eagle died during an explosion. I thought he died in the same way he got put into a coma during the manga, when he and Hikaru were being tested to see who was the one suited for being the new Pillar. Hikaru was chosen and in the manga, Eagle was then going to disappear. But she grabbed onto him and pulled him with her into the main dimension of Cephiro. The experience was painful for them both and Eagle went into the coma, but he was still able to communicate with Hikaru through telepathy. I was surprised at that when I saw it in the manga on Friday. I'm not sure I like that much. XD; If Eagle did ever come out of the coma, it seems that it wouldn't be quite as poignant since he and Hikaru had been able to talk while he was in it. I mean, compare that to if he was just in a normal coma and not being able to communicate. It would be all the more joyous, then, if he actually managed to wake up. On the other hand, I never like explosions as a way of killing characters for good. If there's no body, you can't really prove the person died! HA!

On Saturday we finally started Sonic Adventure 2! It was great. My only complaint was that they cut it off right before we would have (hopefully) got to hear Shadow speak. I wanna hear what he sounds like! Now I've gotta wait till this coming Saturday. XD

**rolls eyes at review for Part Two.** She says that my Bass characterization is off, but she didn't tell me how. --.--;;; So that's a heckuva lot of help to me. I'm sure his characterization is off, going strictly by the fandom. But in Part One, which this girl also read if I remember right, Bass goes through an extremely painful and traumatic experience that results in him regaining his lost memories and being able to see everything in a clearer light. He then sees and realizes that maybe he was wrong in seeking for revenge for so long, but he's extremely confused about what he should do with his life now. Part Two continues where the first one left off. I don't portray Bass.EXE as really acting very nice to anyone, except Gospel, so I don't quite see what this girl is talking about since she wouldn't elaborate.

Blah. FINALLY I'm on!! I've been disconnected from the Internet for a couple of days now thanx to our phone company not fixing things forever >< I got cut off while talking to three people and I haven't even been able to get on to give them an explanation. Of course by the time I can post this in my LJ I had better be able to tell them. ^__~

The good news is: We're having a major snow storm! There's actually enough white stuff that it's worth playing in! **devil horns.**

While I've been Internetless, I've been writing and listening to the CDs I got for Christmas. I found a song that's a perfect theme song for me.

I linger in the doorway
Of alarm clock screaming
Monsters calling my name
Let me stay
Where the wind will whisper to me
Where the raindrops
As they're falling tell a story

In my field of paper flowers
And candy clouds of lullaby
I lie inside myself for hours
And watch my purple sky fly over me

Don't say I'm out of touch
With this rampant chaos---your reality
I know well what lies beyond my sleeping refuge
The nightmare I built my own world to escape

In my field of paper flowers
And candy clouds of lullaby
I lie inside myself for hours
And watch my purple sky fly over me

Swallowed up in the sound of my screaming
Cannot cease for the fear of silent nights
Oh how I long for the deep sleep dreaming
The goddess of imaginary light

In my field of paper flowers
And candy clouds of lullaby
I lie inside myself for hours
And watch my purple sky fly over me

That's totally my song. I live in my little Never NeverLand knowing exactly what I'm doing. I like angst and that sort of thing, but I also have to have my happy endings. Why should stories follow reality exactly? It's more fun to have everything work out in the end, always. At least there's someplace we can go where we know things will wind up happy no matter what has happened.

I also found a line in another song that I thought was kewl: "Don't try to fix me; I'm not broken." I've thought something along those lines many a time. XD Maybe I shall apply it to my portrayals of characters and the like. Again, I know exactly what I'm doing. I don't need to be scolded for it as if I'm marching around blindly XD

I do agree that my stories need more detail and description, but I don't always like describing physical surroundings. If I'm going to be detailed, I prefer it to be in the way of getting inside the characters' minds. That's much more fun for me than describing every little detail of the places the characters wind up at. I never liked drawing backgrounds, either. Or coloring them. It was the characters in the pictures I was (and am) interested in. That's what I enjoy drawing. And writing about. Not places.

I had a crazy dream Sunday morning that can be put to good use. I've already started writing a scene with it before I forget the major points.

And there was a fantasy type story I've been wanting to write too. My interest in it got rekindled again while listening to the Return of the King soundtrack and I got this killer idea for a scene near the climax! **starry eyes. Must write! MUST WRITE!!** Friend against friend! Brother against brother! Only much more intense than what happened in my lil short story fic from a while back!

I think I'm gonna get to go shopping for a bit later today to get a CD that Dad hadn't been able to find in time for Christmas. X3 While we're out, I wanna look at a Sailor Moon manga if I can find it: the one where Pluto sacrifices herself to free Rini from her Black Lady persona! *__*! That's just the kinda sweet thing I love to read about. I wish they hadn't changed that in the animé, and WHY THE HECK WON'T IT LET ME END THE SENTENCE HERE???!! **has tried three times and it keeps refusing to allow a period to be placed.*

Whee! We'll probably leave within an hour or so. **keeps a mental list of everything she needs to check for!**

JP did come on last night shortly after I posted XD He said they didn't have any snow then. But they're supposed to get some more by Sunday.

I'm working on Chapter 12 now. I need some more good plot twists.

I watched an episode of Mobile Suit Gundam. The first one, I think. Man, Heero is SO mean!

Well, I am outta here for now! **flees**